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[maybesoph]

That's awesome news, just take things steady and let things evolve slowly.
It's great that your getting out of a comfort zone, it'll help you blossom as a person.

Way to go x

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[Chelsea]

Ellie this is great news!  I am so happy for you!
You go girl!!

Hugs,
         Chelsea

[Northern Star Girl]

@Roll
Dear Ellie:  
Wow-whee.... you are juggling 2 possible romantic interests!!!!.... 

Perhaps we should consider comparing notes on how we both can deal successfully with those sorts of things.

My thought that I want to give to you is to suggest to you to go down this "new" road slowly and carefully.  I know from personal experience that the emotions that go along with being in our "new"  female role can get overwhelming....  all of it is so flattering, enjoyable, exciting ... and SCARY and FRIGHTENING... all at the same time.

I am very happy for you and the fact that your self-confidence, self-assurance, and your feellings about passing and coming out has reached this new level....   

Well, as my dad always told me when I was in high school and just starting to date....
   "If you can't be good, please be very careful"       

Thank you for your exciting updates...  please keep your readers informed as you have been doing so well.
Hugs and well wishes as always,
Danielle

[Donica]

Remember Ellie! Pictures, or it didn't happen girl. Gosh! I think I would squeeesplode before the 8th gets here.

Hugs,
Donica.

[Roll]

@Roll
Dear Ellie:  
Wow-whee.... you are juggling 2 possible romantic interests!!!!.... 

No, just the one! She's the 2nd girl I started talking to I mentioned originally. The other is 100% non-romantic. Also I like the girl that is the romantic connection way too much to juggle anyone else while talking to her~~

[Roll]

I am just... ................................. Jesus. Date isn't until Saturday but I am just going nuts. I'm so excited, I'm not sure I've ever been this excited. I'm really liking the girl I'm talking to a whole lot, just... a whole, whole lot. We are both jumping ahead of ourselves a bit and know it, and so have agreed to be very clear: no expectations but no limits either, just... let what happens happen. Whether we meet up and decide "Nah", or it's the start of something well and truly real, I think we are prepared. But I also think we really really want it to be the latter. I'm just so over the moon right now it is unbelievable, I can't stop smiling.

I STILL DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M DOING BUT OH GOD IS IT FUN, AND SPECIAL, AND AFFIRMING, AND... I DUNNO, ALL SORTS OF COMPLICATED STUFF!

... *ahem*. Yeah, so, I'm a bit excited.

[Rayna]

Oh, enjoy NEW LOVE!!!  It's magical.  Yes, it may not last or even get truly started, but the feeling is wonderful.  Bask in the new feelings and know that even if this person isn't the one, it can happen again. It's an education, and you will make mistakes, but give yourselves forgiveness as you learn. Most of all, have FUN!!!
Randy

[Northern Star Girl]

@Roll
Dear Ellie:
Yes indeed Ellie, you do for sure sound very, very excited about all of this, and rightfully so.  Certainly new emotions and new experiences to explore and enjoy. 
Please think clearly and make decisions carefully...  and have fun.

All of your followers will eagerly be looking for your continued updates.
Thank you for sharing with us all............

Hugs and hugs, and wishing you well as always,
Danielle

I am just... ................................. Jesus. Date isn't until Saturday but I am just going nuts. I'm so excited, I'm not sure I've ever been this excited. I'm really liking the girl I'm talking to a whole lot, just... a whole, whole lot. We are both jumping ahead of ourselves a bit and know it, and so have agreed to be very clear: no expectations but no limits either, just... let what happens happen. Whether we meet up and decide "Nah", or it's the start of something well and truly real, I think we are prepared. But I also think we really really want it to be the latter. I'm just so over the moon right now it is unbelievable, I can't stop smiling.

I STILL DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M DOING BUT OH GOD IS IT FUN, AND SPECIAL, AND AFFIRMING, AND... I DUNNO, ALL SORTS OF COMPLICATED STUFF!

... *ahem*. Yeah, so, I'm a bit excited.

[Roll]

Hunh. Roller coaster day.

First, date stuff going great. Super excited about that still.

That's the up part.

I also tried to stand up for myself on a few things.

Unfortunately, that turned into the down part.

I'm kinda wondering if this is hormones going nuts, because I am turning on a dime... Just over a month on progesterone.

Anyway, the details of the downs: For the past few weeks I've been dealing with this arrogant jerk in one of my class projects. He is dismissive, condescending, so sure he is right when he is blatantly not, and more. I literally hate this guy more than I think I've hated anyone. Well, after another summary dismissal by him, I lost it. And I told him he could go do a censored thing to himself. ... In a chat monitored by the professor. So. THIS WILL BE FUN FALLOUT. I emailed the professor and laid out the growing issue (there is public record of his jerkiness), and apologized for the language while standing by everything else. I'm a bit terrified what might happen.

The second thing, is, uh, well, I may have just let lose on my dad on a few things. I was originally planning to move to Atlanta with no car, and use Uber and public transportation to get around. I did the math on all this however and realized I'd actually be paying for the services than for a car, all costs included, per month! So I looked up some options, got an idea of prices. Well, turns out I can't afford anything worth a damn. Not a big surprise. So I decided to ask my dad WOULD he help. Not asking for help, just WOULD he. I had already decided I was moving forward without aid, but I wanted to attempt to assert some sort of request for equal consideration. I don't deserve money to help pay for a car, I don't deserve anything. But I wanted to ask at least for that aforementioned consideration, because it is something I most certainly have not received. (Hence part the whole being an agoraphobic wreck for 15-20 years.) I was proceeding regardless. Well, he hemed and hawed like he always does, and I got sick of it. My step mom, wholly uninformed on what was happened, jumped in with some of her nonsense and I lost it on her a bit as well. It then turned into this whole thing where I finally laid out all of my issues from when I was a teenager, from my dysphoria going unaddressed my entire life.

So awesome day.

[lavish staircase]

Soooo, longtime listener, first-time caller.

I am currently in school and participating in at least one group projects per quarter; I feel your pain in this department. If you do not mind me asking, what's the set-up for the project? Like, is it something where you can divide the work up betwixt different individuals? I've found participating in group projects in my thirties to be a mixed bag at best, and there's always that one person - I just pray it's not me! Crummy schmroup-schmrojects.

Keep the faith and break a leg.

[Roll]

Hiya lavish!!

It's a series of various essays culminating in a term paper for a capstone course, IT Research Seminar whatever that means. Some assignments lend to division, others most assuredly do not. (Which is one of the issues, the guy doesn't seem to know the difference!) I the one I finally went off on him about it was supposed to be about our experience using the Six Hats methodology for problem solving, in which we held a meeting and used the methodology on a topic and then wrote up essentially an extended meeting minutes. Instead, he stuck with his divide approach and was like "well, we will each take a hat or two" but that is directly counter to the methodology, as everyone was explicitly supposed to be all "hats" (basically use people with diverse experiences to all think from all angles, instead of having "specialists"). So yeah. I'm sort of hoping we get a bad grade on it just because of the I told you so, but the professor seems checked out and is just handing out 100s... which, I shouldn't be complaining about, but he is coasting and should not be.

There are far too many group projects for my liking in my courses. There are a few people I've found that are amazing and we always strive to get in the same group, and no one until now has been toooooooo bad. A lot of no shows and drop outs, but I'd rather that than someone sabotaging from the inside.

[Sarah1979]

 Just jumping in here with no knowledge of the situation(haven't caught up on this yet) but what helps me is just knowing you're right and they're wrong.  After that, you just make sure you always do it right, it may take a while, but your actions will always be noticed.

[Rayna]

The theory (other than a lazy professor who wants less grading by grouping you) is that out in the "real world" you'll work on project teams with a shared output.

And sometimes that's true, especially when a group is assigned to research a topic and write up a conclusion. You'll all figure out who are the real producers, and there will be some deadwood like in this case. But nearly always this will become visible to management over time. You do however have to learn how to make sure that your contribution is visible, without backstabbing or undermining your fellow team members. A good way is to take the lead or a prominent role in presenting your findings. Be comfortable with public speaking and writing. Also publicly advocate for your findings (unless this is a political loser), and ask hard questions (not mean or picky ones, but ones that indicate you understand the topic). All this will help the leaders to see you as a go-to resource to get stuff done. This from somebody who just retired after 43 years in IT.

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[Roll]

Wow. The past 24 hours have been... eventful. I'm going to keep it simple for now here, while I'm still processing. The date... went perfectly. My first date ever. My first kiss ever. My... 2nd through 5789th kiss ever. My first girlfriend ever. And uh. Also a few other firsts.  The connection was... intense.

[Megan.]

Awwwww cute, happy times [emoji4]

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[davina61]

My imagination is working overtime, sounds like a FUN time

[ChrissyRyan]

Wow. The past 24 hours have been... eventful. I'm going to keep it simple for now here, while I'm still processing. The date... went perfectly. My first date ever. My first kiss ever. My... 2nd through 5789th kiss ever. My first girlfriend ever. And uh. Also a few other firsts.  The connection was... intense.

Ellie,


I am happy for you!


Chrissy

[Donica]

That's great Ellie! Give us details when your ready.

Hugs,
Donica.

[PurpleWolf]

Hey don't you worry about the jerk guy..... you did the right thing whatever you said to him. ! Served him right ha ha! And about your family too..... and the car etc..... Don't feel bad about that either !!! Sometimes ->-bleeped-<- happens.... Some ups and downs are just part of a normal relationship. Your relationship with your dad and stepmom should be able to handle a little argument/misunderstanding etc ! Actually - it's quite good you show some emotion too. And say what you really think/feel after being soooooooo closed up for... sooo long.

Wow. The past 24 hours have been... eventful. I'm going to keep it simple for now here, while I'm still processing. The date... went perfectly. My first date ever. My first kiss ever. My... 2nd through 5789th kiss ever. My first girlfriend ever. And uh. Also a few other firsts.  The connection was... intense.

And this...... I'm sure gonna ask some more about this.....

[KathyLauren]

Wow. The past 24 hours have been... eventful. I'm going to keep it simple for now here, while I'm still processing. The date... went perfectly. My first date ever. My first kiss ever. My... 2nd through 5789th kiss ever. My first girlfriend ever. And uh. Also a few other firsts.  The connection was... intense.

Wow!  I am so happy for you!  I am glad it worked out so well.