Liz, Danielle, Jayne, Laurie & Michelle .. thank you .. I still can't see 'her' in any photo. I should add that Lori took one look at the smiling picture and agreed with all of you. She said she saw all woman, no man at all. I wish that I could
I despair of ever really seeing 'her' on any regular basis.
normal grump: I slept wrong and I have a pinch between my shoulder blades. I can't sit up straight, the shooting pain is too intense. It's constant down my arm, worse if I straighten up. It'll work out, it's happened before, hopefully sooner than later.
It was a mood swing night last night for both Lori and me. I was feeling better when she got home for lunch (evening shift) and looking forward to seeing her. She was tired and bummed from over-thinking things. I couldn't get an answer from her then. I stood on the steps and watched her head back to work feeling bad that I couldn't help her improve her day. I ended up changing into the dumpiest clothes I could find to fit my mood.
She felt better after she got home, it was already late, we ended up staying up longer talking through things and snuggling a bit.
I coaxed out of her what made her depressed earlier ... me. She was pondering finances trying to figure out how to pay for everything ... GRS/SRS/whatever acronym ... and coming up short. We have too many things to get fixed, I'm not on the list. I told her as much. I try not to think about it because we are not in a position financially to do anything, probably never will be.
On a plus note, she said that when she backed out of the drive to head back to work she had to stop and look at me. She said that I was really projecting my feminine side and looked very beautiful. I think it was rain-blur. Like using a soft-focus lens to hide all the flaws.
I had more to say, CRS is kicking in. Maybe later ...
Faith