First, not sure where to post this so I'll let the mods decide if it needs to be moved.
I'm posting this because I want to have a single thread for discussing how I progress from this point on. Online diary of sorts to share.
At this point: I prefer female presentation however I'm fine presenting male, I do not feel like I'm 'lying' or in a costume, etc. I can be male in the world, at work and such. Being able to shed it at home is enough right now. I guess I'm a 50/50.
Brief summary,
A while back I really hit the crossing point disliking my look, I fought my hair (head as-in managing), body hair, genitals, You guys know the drill. I started tucking (told the wife it was for comfort without details). That evolved into a total unexpected discussion with her about how I feel and the real why .. which led to her helping me find panties, jeans, some shirts/blouses, etc. Comfort ensued for a bit. I am not a dress/skirt person, whether that changes or not doesn't really matter. I covered her responses in other posts, I'll not reiterate.
Next came little things, for daily expression. No need to expound. I have changed my diet (not for 'herbal' feminization) for blood pressure and kidney support. Well, this enhanced what I was already feeling. My wife very much has noticed the change in me the past year culminating to this point. She very much likes the emotional changes and, at the start, struggled with the rest. Last night I was talking (read blabbering) and she just looked at me and said "I think you want breasts". Well, that opened up a whole new conversation.
I held nothing back. I explained everything that I'm feeling, everything I've learned thus far in regards to transgender and the various stages and how everyone is different in what they are looking for to feel comfortable with themselves. I covered, the best that I could, the effects of HRT and what it would/could do.
Her comments? She told me I should find a forum to read through and get support .. she also said I should get a Dr appointment to discuss it with to see about what treatment to get that best suits me and my health.
I was shocked. We've come so for in a short time I can barely believe it. My loving wife, in no uncertain terms, told me to figure out what HRT process to pursue and we'll deal with the changes as they come.
I never thought I'd describe myself as giddy but that seems to be the best word to use. I'm floating so high at the moment that I'm waiting for the bubble to burst with underlying dread.
I'm sure I've skimmed a bit and glossed over details. It's enough for now.
Thanks to all of you for helping me get to this point, whether you know that you did or not.