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Rollercoaster ups and downs, back and forth

Started by Marcieelizabeth, November 14, 2017, 08:10:19 AM

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Marcieelizabeth

Hi all -

This rollercoaster ride is awesome and terrifying and terrible on any given day for me?  Can you relate?

Hey Ladies! 

I am on the proverbial rollercoaster ride!! First, there is just the ups and downs of the hormones effects - the ups are so AWESOME, the downs a bit low, then there are the social things: fearfulness, looks, not being out yet, but the ones that tear me apart are the family/friend ones when you agree on things, or try to and then this changes - it absolutely destroys me emotionally.  Tears, fears, pain, tearing myself down, and eating!!  All not wanted things!

How do you handle the down times?

Love and hugs to all of you struggling with this amazing confirming process!

Marcie
:-*

First memory of cross-dressing - age 8 - 1967
Marcie Since 6-17-17   :D
Out to wife 6-27-17  :D :D
Started HRT 10-13-17  :D :D :D
First time completely me at therapy on 10-31-17 <3
Started Finestrade on 11-1-17 <3
Estradiol and Spiro to therapeutic levels on 12-4-17
Went out totally as Marcie with friends sans beard 3-24-18
Estradiol increased second time 3-27-18
Out to both sisters 2-3-19

...it makes me smile to know its me, fearful about losing the good things in my life, anxious about every single step, doubting my resolve, determined to stop living a lie,  VERY hopeful for the future as myself, Marcie, and I am thankful to have this safe place
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