My wife and I have been together for 35 years. She has been with me through thick and thin. From living in a 20' travel trailer in order to afford a home to finding our dream home here in Washington. Two kids. Now a grand daughter. Some would say I'm a lucky dude. But I have never really felt like a dude. Don't get me wrong, I've never been effeminate but I do share some female traits. I cry a lot, always have. I have never been strong or aggressive, I tend to seek consensus rather than letting my ego get in the way. I have a nurturing nature and was the main caregiver for our kids. I never thought sex was the end all, be all, of existence. My wife knew I crossdressed before we got married and never brought it up although there were many times I had left clues around the house that I had been in someone else's shoes. She has her days, saying I embarrassed her. But mostly she realizes her life too is better now. We no longer deal with my anger, I do not go days without talking to her. I am more like a girlfriend than a husband often engaging in small talk that just was not so before HRT started. I like my life now and embrace new challenges that I used to avoid. I love my wife even more today as she is my rock. She did not expect me to take female hormones, but I can't think of a better way to show my love than to make what was driving a wedge between us addressed and repaired. I have been living a lie and I knew it all these years. I now understand or at least have a good idea on how I became the person I am. It really was not a choice. My choice was living as my sex organs suggested. Not as how my brain was functioning. Now everything is back in alignment. I am happy, hopeful, grateful for the first time really. Yes there are more desires. I would have loved to have had a child come out of my body, I am also almost sad that I can't have a period. Almost.
