At the age of 57, I've been able to survive to the point that I can retire and collect a pension. I would think that all of you who are reading this understands how difficult this has been. I'm MTF, have had no life, no ability to function sexually with either a man or a woman due to the constant gender conflict, and only have one friend, an individual with whom I've lived with for more than 31 years. There is a problem as he's gay, and cannot accept living with a woman. He's in fair health, 75 years old, sometimes falls, and is dependant on me for to help with daily living. I'm reluctant to cause us to separate since I would on one hand feel incredibly guilty, and on the other, I need his support. I also have Hepatitis C, and the doctor wants me to "try" the current teatment which for me, has an extremely low chance of success and would incapacitate me for a prolonged period with the side effects. The therapist can only offer HRT as an option for me, since I've been routinely cross dressing in public, everthing except a skirt or dress for many, many years. This how I'm SUPPOSED to dress, and I've always done it. So. Now that I can begin HRT and finally transition, I can't/wont. I'm feeling extremely trapped, and just don't know how to proceed. If anyone has any ideas, I'd love to hear from you!
