I grew up in a religious household, so naturally I was taught against a lot of things like sex, homosexuality, and gender aberrant behavior.
...thing is, I grew up not fitting that world, and I became increasingly guilty and shameful of myself. fighting back and forth on what I can and cant do. Feeling disgraced by myself.
Ive been taught other beliefs of the afterlife, that we dont die and go to hell.
But the thing is...thats what Ive been taught. In the written law, if we dont turn away, we are doomed to hell.
Part of me still has these ideals ingrained in my head, and always will.
We are doomed to die and face eternity in hell. We are broken people. We can only be saved by denying ourselves and following "the right path".
...I dont know how to do that, though. Every day I feel like my happiness is wrong. A tragedy.