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[CindyLouCovington]

I WILL HAVE TO MAKsE this in several short segments as I have no access to a REAL COMPUTER,BUT OMLY TO A STUPID LAPTOP the most feindish piece of junk ever invented, Desktops are the only thing worth 5 cents, but I have to use this pos I wS twice I was well under way on a long post when this worthless bastard crapped out.     so her goes againI am for all practical purposes a PRISONER at the "mercy" of my vicious abd sadistic sister Judy. the horror began on April 7 2016 when I wasnearly killed by a nit and run terrorist in front of my house. the circumstances indicate that it was DELIBERATe, I believe by a "religeous " fanatic sicked on me by trans phobe neighbors He was driving a black car. And later that year a trans man of our local group was nearly run down by a BLACK CARin Metairie. the intended victim is certain that the car deliberately tried to run him down I personally spoke with him Iended upin a coma for 4 months. barely was I out of the coma when my sistercame and entertained herself with a detailed account of how near death I had been She told me that none of the doctors had given me a chance of survival that if I had had a living will they would have pulled the plug. that at times I was so hopeless they nearly pulled the plug anyway.

[CindyLouCovington]

my sister was born 11 years after me. and unlike many teenagers I glady looked after her for my mother. I used to play board games like Candyland with her and got real pleasure in seeing her enjoy doing this. I also helped her with a large dollhouse we had, and now realize that I was a big Sister to her. though at the time nobody but reserchers knew about ->-bleeped-<-, certainly not ME. we are talking about the 50's and 60's. I had  crossdressed since I was 6(1954) and yearned to have long hair, but didn't realize tnat I WAS a girl in a male body, if I had and said so they would have said I was crazy. eventually  when she went away to college and later married we saw little of each other though OUTWARDLYshe remained friendly with me she lived in a house she still owns in nearby Metairie.I always liked her and considered her a nice girl. when I went to Thailand for my Srs I told only her, and she wasn't upsetthough she said that she never suspected it, considering me a book nerd, but not effeminate. i told her my email in case of emergemcy.while I was away I received a panicky email from her about our elderly father in assisted living"Daddy is out of control" she saidinterestingly enough his rage at her did not concern her because of the threat to his health BOT BECAUSE SHE WAS AFRAID OF BEING DISINHERITED

[CindyLouCovington]

I KNEW THAT THERE WAS NO REAL DANGER OF THATmy father  and before she died several years earlier had often made threats likethat but never carried them out and I told her so But because she was so upset I promised to talk to him when I got back"Don'i worry I will back you up"Itold her. I went to see him and begged him to be more patient with her since she was the one who took him to the doctor. He seemed sorry and promised to be more patient. the reason why Judy's marriage failed was not known to me at the timebut now I believe it was the same reason her older sisters first marriage broke up. because Janet was a sadist who treated her spineless second husband like a groveling SLAVE AND WAS TOTALITARIAN TO ANYONE under her control even temporarily.a so-called "christian" naturally. the older of my two brothers was just as nasty to his poor wife which my father complained about. When my father died in 2014 at 97 I had to make a new will I had no use for either of my brothers. So I wrote out two coppies of a handwritten Will Valid in louisiana leaving most of my estate to Judy.I gave them to her at the funeralin an unsealed envelope telling her what I had done

[CindyLouCovington]

bitterly disappointed that I had not died as predicted an allowed her to collect a huge amount of money. she began doing her best to "rectify" the "mistake" and finish the job started by the terrorist.           So barely was I conscious when she to did everything she could to upset me and shock me into a fatal relapse. she sarcastically said that I was only supposed to think pleasant thoughts And when I said that I was looking forward to going to the sympany book fair used bookk collecyed to sell for the benefit of the orchestra which I had loved going to since I was 11. She harshly cut me off saying you are never going there again you have enough books. everytime I said something she informed me that SHE was going to decide from now on how I was going to live and what I was going to be allowed to have. SHE WOULD buy everything she would allow me to have, with my own money of which she intended to be the permanent custodian. she further informed me that she was GIVING MY PRIZED ANTIQUE CAR WHICH SHE KNEW was my treasured possesion to my nephew the son of her now dead nasty sister When I begged and pleaded with her hot to do this, she mocked at laughed at me ,saying that she had gotten power of attorney from a court and that she could do whatever she wanted with anything I ownedI accused her of being a two bit HITLER and she triumphanty and happily said "THAT'S RIGHT I AM YOUR HITLER AND THERE IS NOTHING THAT YOU CAN DO ABOUT IT BUT LIE THERE AND TAKE IT"

[CindyLouCovington]

at the time I was in this terrible Kindred Hospital to which blue cross had transferred me from LSU Hospital, "the cheaoest crummiest hospital is good enough for someone who is going to die anyway I suppose" with no access to a phone even if there had been someone to call .My sister didn't care how long I remained in that horrible place. but a sympathetic caseworker got me transfered to Touro Infirmary onr of the finest hospitals in the country. with wonderful rehab therapy which got me walking and well on the way to recovery though I still need a new Knee though I can walk pretty well.My stay at Touro was extended several times because I was making remarkable progress ,but finally I was transferred to AJ. Hainkel nursing home, which has very good therapy and where I have continued to inprove and am well treated, very nice staff in all departments.I don't plan to stay here for the rest of my life, but my sadistic sister has made thr idea of going home as unpleasant as possible.I AM FIRMLY CONVINCED THAT SHE IS DANGEROUSLY INSANE. from the time I awoke to the present she has treated me as though I was some bitter enemy she had been waiting for years to GET  EVEN WITH. I HAVE BEEN WRACKING MY BRAIN  to try to find even the most trivial reason for her attitude in vain

[CindyLouCovington]

she has total control of everything I have I phoned USAA where most of my money is in a mutual fund and they said that a court order prevented me from finding out ANY information about my account, I wasn't trying to withdraw a cent, and they wouldn't give me information about MY OWN ACCOUNT everyone suggests getting a lawyer. sure I have the legal right. I have the "legal right" to buy a country estate also but with no money I am helpless to do either one. frankly even if I had money the odds of finding an honest lawyer in this crooked city are extremely poor unless you know one personally there are supposedly clinics to help indigents but all that I have gotten are excuses. She is hoping that I will get so sick of this place that I will make any kind of deal with her in exchange for getting out.FAT CHANCE I will stay here until she dies if I have to and I hope that happens soon.her sister died in her fifties of pancreatic cancer so there is hope.AND I DO HOPE.I told her I would not consider returning to my house until I saw what it looked like. In a smart aleck voice she said"YOU'RE NOT GOING TO LIKE IT"In addition to throwing out many of my things including ones of great sentimental value.My 1950's ranch house which I had carefully painted blue green with white trimlike the original color she had painted WITH MY OWN MONEY , DARK GRAY WITH FLAT BLACK TRIM like a depraved sadists idea of a funeral home hardly surprising since it was done by a DEPRAVED SADIST