First off let me state that I am a 33 year old non-op transsexual woman both by choice & underlying medical conditions. I already had a boyfriend pre-HRT (I'm bi anyway), and I am a firm believer that genitals do not equal gender. I have very minimal bottom Dysphoria, but if you wish to think of me as non-binary that's fine by me but I do itentify as female.
So the meat and potatoes of this discussion.
I've been on Finasteride for 13 months as a supplemental T blocker in addition to my normal T blocker which was originally Spiro & later changed to casodex/Bicalutamide. I have Dysautonomia, which my doctor was fully aware of before prescribing finasteride to me. She said it was a DHT blocker, and that it couldn't hurt. I have no male pattern baldness, practically zero body hair and have already had facial laser. Why I was put on this drug I don't really know but I trusted the doc and rolled with it.
Well long story short, I have have been absolutely bedridden since after so many months on HRT. I can't sit or stand for very long periods at all without fainting, but I was much better before. I thought it was just progression of my prior health condition. I went from being able to walk around a few hours a day to not being able to get out of bed unless I need to use the restroom and bathe. I was completely unaware that a common side effect of finasteride is postural Hypotention (a condition that I already had).
2 months after starting HRT I had massive depression and couldn't figure out why considering that I was so happy to finally be on HRT. I was happy and excited with my body changes. Out of the blue I attempted suicide (a pretty serious attempt), I was so depressed and don't know why I did it. I didn't know that depression was a side effect of this drug either.
Lastly, I of course now have zero libido, have major hypogonadism, shrunken genitals, ED, atrophied prostate and even if I can ejaculate by practically forcing myself to be in a sexual situation I find that there is little to no sensation.
Personally I wasn't too concerned about genital shrinkage etc, but I 'be been telling the doctor about 6 months after starting HRT that my libido is far lower than any cisgender woman that I've ever known. My 63 year old mother has a higher libido than I do. My doctor prescribed me progesterone to try to help my libido. She's been aware of my blood pressure getting worse and made no mention of the drug that she'd been prescribing me.
So I played around with different dosages & types of T blockers so I could try to retain some libido at all. It worked temporarily for a few weeks many many months ago, but it just eventually went void. However, I never once discontinued the DHT blocker Finasteride.
I leave this as a warning to anyone considering finasteride, whether your problem is low libido, brain fog or worse orthostatic Hypotention, i'd avoid this particular drug at all costs if you're non-op and don't have MAJOR concerns about male pattern baldness or have prostate cancer.
I admit I should have researched the drug before taking it, but I trusted the doctor and since they knew both my full medical history & non-op status there was no reason at the very least to worsen my chronic health conditions.
Please stay safe and healthy, everyone. Wish me luck, I've been off finasteride for 2 weeks now but have had zero changes so far in libido or blood pressure. I'm hoping to be able to have a better life than being bed ridden. I just want to be able to go out in the world again on my own two feet (and *any* libido wouldn't hurt either).
I have no plans to detransition and I'm just going to try to make the best of a bad situation that was made worse.
Lots of love and support,
-Melody