An introduction. I am 70 years old and have struggled with my dysphoria all my life. I've been in therapy off and on since the age of 19. Most of the therapists were quite judgmental making me feel even more guilt. I've been married for nearly 50 years to a wonderful woman who has struggled along with me. We have two adult children neither of whom knew I was trans until last night.
Twenty-five years ago I found a therapist who was sympathetic to my situation, and I have been on hormones for the past 20 years. I have a B cup, no body hair, and, I think, a milder disposition. I dress privately but, for professional reasons and lack of courage have never socially transitioned. I still feel quite alone.
Last May, my former endocrinologist reduced my dosages dramatically, and I went into a tailspin, seriously contemplating suicide. I got a new endocrinologist and with the counseling of my old therapist and a new one have decided to have GRS. It's scheduled for May. I am very excited!
I told my kids and my daughter-in-law last night, and they were awesome! Without skipping a beat, they expressed their unconditional love. They cried with me and showed unbelievable kindness to my wife and me.
I know I'm an oddity in this group. I'm medically transitioning but, unlike most of you, have not — at least up to this point — had the courage to socially transition. I'd like to commiserate if there's anyone else here in a similar position.
Thanks so much for this protected space.
