I started puberty when I was super young. I noticed dark hair on legs and a very small amount of breast development when I was 10 years old. I got an x ray recently and I stopped growing when I was 11. Which is early for a boy or a girl.
Most of the people I see going through puberty in 2 ways. Early or late. If I started puberty so early then why does it still look like I am only just starting? My younger brother was always a lot shorter than I am, he started puberty late, and now he is more than 6 inches taller and looks 3 years older.
I feel like the level of hormones that I have goes up and down. Sometimes I really do look like I am actually going through puberty and getting older. Sometimes my chest area gets somewhat larger and I start going through puberty more like a girl. But then it actually just disappeared. Two times I think my face might have started to look slightly male, but only just a little bit. Hair has started to grow and then stopped growing and disappeared. And then started growing again. In one month I can look 2 years older and then the next month I look 3 years younger, literally. It feels like I am going around in cycles instead of going in any certain direction.
I have gotten two hormone tests before for both testosterone and estrogen. They were totally different. The testosterone was way lower in my more recent one. Which is almost 2 years later. My doctor was confused because that usually that should not happen to anyone going through puberty, I don't think. I also got FSH level tested and it was super high.
When I got a karyotype test it was XY. Which was confusing for me because I have Atrial Septal Defect. Which happens one in every 5,000 babies so it is very unlikely to be a coincidence that I also happen to have other development problems. Atrial Septal Defect is a side effect of some genetic differences, like trisomies of chromosomes for example. It could also be caused by some smaller DNA mutations. Possibly with CAH 3 beta hydroxysteroid dehydrogenase deficiency?
Now my doctor wants to wait 6 months and take more blood tests, a third time, and then try to figure out the cause more. My mom admits that it is happening I think but she does not talk about it. She said lets work to be a boy, even with this problem. My dad at least sounds like he is admitting it when he is talking about getting me testosterone and "chest fat" reduction surgery. But then when I try to explain it is related to me being Transgender he completely changes, and says everything about me is normal. He says I am 6 ft tall and look like any other boy my age. Which is obviously not true. I think I can easily stop from getting testosterone by making sure he does not feel comfortable admitting this is happening.
Both deeply care about me being a boy. It is not because they logically decided against it. It is because it emotionally matters to them.
I keep having abdominal pain for years. I think I feel like it happens around the same time of the month. It is different from being constipated, because that also happens all the time to me. I also have had blood in urine three times. It was just 100% blood. There were also some small blood clots in it. I think it was around the same time as the abdominal pain but that could easily be a coincidence. It is at least worth mentioning because the whole thing is pretty unusual.
I also remember being in the hospital for something involving my private parts when I was a baby. I once asked and it had to do with my intestines? That does not make sense. I was in the hospital a lot when I was a baby for a lot of reasons I don't know. I was fainting for an unknown reason, and now I am again but have not been to the doctors office. But whatever happened during that time I am sure my parents never were unsure at all that I am a 100% normal male.
I am constantly feeling really bad. All I ever think about is being allowed to be a girl. At school I am introducing myself as a girl. And I tell anyone who knew me before I am transgender. All of my teachers are fine with this. And my parents do not know about this, I don't think anyone at school is going to tell my parents. I make sure I wear certain clothing. Most people think I look like a girl with shortish hair. But I am very worried about getting a super short haircut. Because then I couldn't possibly look like a girl. This is making me feel a little bit better I guess. But I am still just always waiting to be a girl at home and at school.
Do you have any ideas what could be causing me to develop like this? And any ideas of what I should do in general? Even if something randomly comes into your head in a week, it would help me.