Time to join the Party

[Quinn]

Hello Everyone,

I thought it was about time introduce myself and stop lurking in the corner for the last few years.

I am MtF ,51 years old

I  have always known that something was different about me than others, as the older transitioners can attest , times were different when we growing up so the trans or transsexual topics were not in the public eye and subject that were talked about.
Even thou I knew there was something off from what I perceived to be the norm I did what many did . Was married , had children, and grandchildren . divorced for many years now.
Still in a career that is hard to transition. Kept thinking that I would do it soon, maybe next year. I will start looking into it soon and so on and so on.
The years went by always wanting to but letting fear and thinking there is always a better time I will be in a financially better position.
So the years of emotional pain and suffering kept going while I was watching other people live their lives and waiting to live mine.
Last year I finally just stepped up and started the process that is called transition.
I have seen a few gender therapists now.
Wanted to start hormones but kept running into snags with trying to find an endo on my old insurance that was willing and had exp with trans patients i kept running into roadblocks.
Then I heard that Kaiser was really good  with transgendered patients. So I switched insurance to Kaiser .
Within a month I had seen their therapist that I really like by the way, another two weeks I was able to see the endo very knowledgeable.
My original thought was to start on a really low dose of Estradiol and just transition really slow, but a few months went by and decided to double that dose again. another few months go by and now I'm currently working my way up to full transitional doses in the next month. I always increase slowly

So here I am now , have been reading everyone posts for years and wanted to post to topics but for whatever reason did not.

I started this account last year when I was looking for a therapist so I started with the name Brie but now am leaning toward Paige

Talk to you all soon   

[Allison S]

Hi there! I did the same thing before joining so I'm there with you. That's very exciting that your doses are getting increased. If i can ask, how have you been with being patient with time/results?

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[V M]

Hi Brie 

Welcome to Susan's Place    Glad to have you here, join on in the fun

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V M

[tgirlamg]

Welcome aboard Brie / Paige!!!

I started the transition ball rolling at 52 and couldn't be happier!

Looking forward to seeing life blossom for you!!!

Onward we go!!!

Ashley 😀

[Quinn]

Thank you for your welcome

Dist  I am torn with the time it takes for changes to happen, at my age Its always a complete guess if any real changes will take place. I own a construction company so I still present male and not sure how to make the change and still keep the clients. I'm not as worried about employees, I treat all my people with respect and pay them well, if any have a problem I can find another one. But clients in a competitive field like this can easily go somewhere else If they feel uncomfortable.
So back to your question I'm torn because I do not want to wait and want all the changes now but on the same hand I need to maintain the business and an income.
  I have had some breast development already, if someone looks and me from the side it is completely visible. Been growing my hair out for the last two years but at 51 there is not as much to grow and its much slower and not as healthy as once was.
    I have some issues with testosterone skyrocketing lately so atm I have high testosterone and estrogen in female range and feeling drained. But  will make a post in the hormone section about this.
  I'm sure once the hormones settle to where they are supposed to be more changes will happen faster
I do not have a time plan for anything at the moment, I had waited until I plan for everything I would 160 years old so decided to just move along at my pace as long as its forward.

Paige

[Allison S]

That's so great that you've started paige and trust me it's been very tough for me too.. good thing is I've been sleeping a lot. I take my pills at night, sleep and then I'm up again which (usually) feels instant to take them again. That's really my only comfort right now..

You definitely have a lot of responsibility at your job especially with your employees. I'm similar because I have clients and I feel like it might cause some tension. I just don't know for sure yet.

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