HRT Misfits

[Lucy Ross]

I've read about people who started on the hormones thinking it would be the greatest thing imaginable, and then all of a sudden they just see a guy in a dress in the mirror, or realize they were crossdressing as part of acting out their libido and now find they can't live without it; or they simply feel generally morose. Anyone actually know someone who experienced this?

My examples are for MTFs, I wonder what would happen for FTMs. The feelings wouldn't necessarily be the direct converses, I'd imagine. Anne Vitale says HRT makes for a diagnostic tool for GD, too. I kept that in mind when I was starting out. Didn't have any qualms about it then, don't now either.  But what feelings I had initially I think were psychosomatic, by and large.

[Jailyn]

You are referring to detransitioning. There are so many reasons I have heard from people that do it. As you know your gd never goes away. It still affects us in some way. Well in some people from what I have heard from them it gets expounded as they transition, so they transition back because it is more comfortable the other way. I think for individuals that have this they should look at being genderfluid then you can pick your gender day to day. I don't know there are many things they could pick but, it's their choice. So yeah there are many reasons for detrasitioning and well I am not one of them. I am comfortable in my skin now.

[Bari Jo]

Hi Lucy, I've experienced something similar, but not quite the same.  I was never a huge cross dresser, well maybe in high school.  My GD is more physical.  Anyway, hrt corrects my imbalance to what my brain and body wants and needs.  After a few months I just felt normal, and I started to think I no longer needed it.  This is why I quit when doing DIY hormones several times.  I even lasted a few years between courses.  Always the GD came back and more fierce than before.  I'm on prescription hrt now and can see how this feeling might come back that I don't need it.  However now, I know from experience that I do.  It'll be easier to not quit this time.  Hrt hasn't actually helped me act out libido.  I found that my libido went way down while on it, which was welcome.  My libido was ruling my life as it was my only escape to feel feminine.  I know hrt has to be part of me from now on.

Bari Jo

[Amie June]

Lucy, I agree with everyone else: for most, GD is here to stay and it will wax and wane as the days, weeks,  months go by. But it will never leave and may get worse. Only the individual, maybe with the help of a good therapist, can find their way forward. My feminine side bubbles to the surface often and seems to be calling for attention. She makes me tearful and I feel "she' wants to come out and is asking for my help. So I'm giving it. And I agree with Barbi Jo about the role of libido - what a curse! Can't wait for the dang thing to leave me alone

Lindy Lou

[Lucy Ross]

Lindy - have your hormone levels checked, and talk to your doctor about increasing the anti-androgens, it was only after 5 months of HRT that my libido came down much, after noticeable contraction of my testicles; I then found out my T was at feminine levels, and wonder what it had been before, and whether I should have just increased my spiro intake.

Detransitioning I understand to be something done unwillingly, or after GD has apparently disappeared like BariJo describes.  The cases I'm talking about involved those who had the notion they were transsexuals, but found out with HRT that they're actually not.  They were never transitioning in the first place.  The person with the high libido was a incredible CD, just a knockout, but discovered that she needed to have her male sexual potential. 

[Allison S]

That's an interesting example and I understand it in a way. There's a sort of thrill with the new found sexulity of crossdressing. I think.. I can see how it can be like sex roleplaying in a way.

Everyone's identity is different. The question is where do you feel "at home" most. I just had my friend send videos from a few months ago before I started hrt and I just thought "wow I looked so masculine". It horrified me to think I could ever go back.

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[LexiDreamer]

The person with the high libido was a incredible CD, just a knockout, but discovered that she needed to have her male sexual potential.

Being a transgender woman and having a high libido are not mutually exclusive.

Yes, if your HRT regimen consists of oral Estradiol, Spironolactone and/or  Finasteride, your libido is likely to crash.
Mine did!

But for many, adding progesterone helps restore libido.
Finasteride is notorious for killing sexual drive and function.
Also, I've noticed since switching to Estradiol Valerate injections and discontinuing the Spironolactone my sexual desire and drive has restored.

I understand that there are a lot of Transwomen out there that want their libido to die, but there are also others in marriages and sexual relationships that don't want to lose their partners due to HRT killing their sex life.
I just want them to realize with the right hormonal balance they can indeed keep it alive.

Of course "YMMV" as they say. But those of us that had a healthy libido and decent functionality before HRT, can most likely enjoy both during.

-Lexi

*** Any suggestions I make should never be used as a substitute for licensed medical advice ***
*** All of my personal pharmaceutical experiences I share, have been explicitly supervised by a licenced medical professional ***