Shyra means brightness in Arabic so I assume and please correct me if I am wrong. You are dealing with cultural issues. Since I don't know where you live, I'm going to leave it up to you to investigate our wiki's and links. We do not speak of self medicating on Susans and for good reason. IT Is DANGEROUS. There are a some online therapists that interview via Skype. Also there are many support groups, unfortunately most are in major cities. Are you a student as many colleges have support groups on campus. The thing with support groups is that you have something in common and makes decision making easier.