Long Time Reader, New Member

[AgentVermont052]

Hello!!

I've been a long time reader of the forums, both for recommendations and input for my own transition. And after a year or so I finally decided to become an actual forum member. This forum is my go to for new information and help with anything I need.

I'm finally, and extremely hopeful, beginning my transition in the next month or two!! My first appointment with a transgender friendly therapist is this week and I'm excited and extremely nervous. I'm hoping to start HRT soon as well!!

Minor About Me's:

• Preferred Pronouns - They/He
• I am still trying to determine what I want to use to describe my identity... but most days I call myself a masculine presenting Non Binary person who is using HRT and surgery to achieve my transition goals.
• I am panromantic, grey asexual!!
• My username comes from one of my favorite TV shows and video games, with my own personal twist.
• I love video games and collect memorabillia from them.
• I've met a few of my favorite voice actors and they are amazing and wonderful and accepting people. One time I cried meeting one and the guy came out from behind his booth and gave me the biggest hug.
• Video games have helped me discover who I am. And I can't be thankful enough to the people who created them.
• I'm a Moira main, and D.va is my secondary main.
• I create various art content, mostly 3D art content. I am hoping to start teaching myself animation soon and apply to my dream job within the next decade.
• Although I live on my own now as an adult, I still unfortunately deal with parents who would not be open to my identity or my sexuality. So to them and my family I am in the closet, but am open with very loving and supportive friends.

...Still trying to figure out exactly how the forum and my profile works? I'll try reading some posts to help!

[V M]

Hi AgentVermont 

Welcome to Susan's Place    Glad to have you here, join on in the fun

Here are some links to the site rules and stuff that we offer to all new members to help them along

Things that you should read

Site Terms of Service & Rules to Live By	Standard Terms & Definitions	Post Ranks (including when you can upload an avatar)	Cautionary Note
Reputation rules	News posting & quoting guidelines	Photo, avatars, & signature images policy	Membership Agreement

Hugs

V M

[AgentVermont052]

Thank you!! I've been looking at some of the TOS and other policies. I think I understand everything now.

[Kendra]

Hello AgentVermont, welcome to Susan's!

Lots of good news and planning on your part - sounds like you have a great network of friends.  My first therapist meeting was May 2017 with HRT two months later - my endocrinologist had a waitlist.  If your therapist is good you have absolutely nothing to worry about.  They should put you at ease, be totally open to your questions, and provide advice based on their professional experience. 

I am sorry to hear your parents won't be open to your identity or sexuality.  Or they might not be.  Or... maybe they will be?  There is only one way to find out for certain.  Since you're in a situation where this doesn't risk your safety (they can't throw you out of the house), well you can see where i'm going with this.  One reason is I had convinced myself my parents would completely freak out and reject me for the rest of their lives.  That fear built up over time until I realized: if they accept me or at least tolerate this, wouldn't that be great?  If they reject me because they misunderstand - or worse because they care more about what their neighbors think than about my existence, well then I've learned an important fact about them.  And it turned out when I came out to my 86 year old parents - I was shocked by how immediately and completely they accepted me.  My mother is excited, and my father picked my new middle name.  It's the female form of his middle name. 

Life can be very interesting.  All the best wishes for you.

Kendra

[AgentVermont052]

... I was shocked by how immediately and completely they accepted me.  My mother is excited, and my father picked my new middle name...

If anyone in my immediate family would eventually accept me it'd be my brother. He grew up very homophobic and close minded. But last year when I mentioned volunteering for a lgbt group he was surprisingly supportive.
I have a cousin and his wife who are supportive but are also keeping it a secret until I'm ready to tell the rest of our family.
I appreciate you sharing your story, I'm trying to keep my head up!

[Lena101]

Hello & welcome.

I hope your appointment with the therapist this week goes well.  It is great you have supportive friends & a cousin with his wife that also support you.  I wish you all the best on your transition.

[Devlyn]

Drizzle, drazzle, drezzle, drome
Time for this lurker to come home!   

Welcome to Susan's Place, as you probably know I'm the court jester!    Glad you decided to come in out of the cold. See you around!

Hugs, Devlyn

[AgentVermont052]

I hope your appointment with the therapist this week goes well.  It is great you have supportive friends & a cousin with his wife that also support you.  I wish you all the best on your transition.

Thank you Lena!! The therapist appointment did go well. I mentioned how I identify as transgender and although I am comfortable with that, I'm not in a safe place to come out publicly yet. So she and I will of course work on that and will help me with referrals with HRT and surgery, but not until I'm ready to come out. So I'm glad she understood.
I'm also seeing her for other things and we focused mostly on those things last session. She seems like a wonderful therapist and willing to understand and work with me!

And Thanks Devlyn!! I've been busy the last few days with work and running around town so I am behind on checking the forum.