How did you grow up with your gender?
I don't have the "I always felt wrong growing up". I grew up as a kid not understanding why I can't be called the same things as a boy and do both girl AND boy things. I've just always done as I want despite the gender roles.
It wasn't until about three years ago I started to feel uncomfortable and part of it is due to living in a foster home and being afraid to get kicked out for being who I was. But once I was living in a secure place (I lived with them before I was actually adopted) I started to experiment and realized that "female" isn't for me. I hate being labeled as female. I don't hate women or female identifying people, it's just the word female on ME personally, feels slimy, it feels wrong It feels like I'm supposed to reject that. Same with boy. Both of them just feel like someone's pouring labels made out of slime all over my body that I just want to squirm out of. However, I do prefer he/him pronouns which are gendered but I lean towards more masculine even though I present as soft androgynous. And after trying to find a label to explain to people in order to come out, none of them fit. As I explained in the last question.
But now I'm afraid that I won't be taken seriously, or what if I'm confused, I know I'm not but what if I allow societal pressure to change me? I digress, but thaat's my experience growing up androgyne