Jayden's Adventure

[AutumnGurl81]

One month on E today. Almost two months on HRT. And wow, today was a doosy...But I'll refrain from ranting. Let's just say it involved my psychologist, getting cysts cut out of my arms, my soon to be ex-wife (who's a school counselor btw) giving ZERO F's about how I've been, and then I was reminded that tomorrow is Feb 21st...yikes.

What have I noticed? Not much, my emotions are the same but multiplied, so any emotion I feel is just exponentially more intense then it was before. Skin is soft, right nip is playing catch up now, and the contour of my face seems slightly different. I've gained a few pounds, and I'm not sure where, don't feel like anymore muscle has shed, but idk.

[AutumnGurl81]

Soo...lots happened since my last post on this thread. But before I begin my rant/post I would like to thank everyone here for their support, whether it be written or in their heart. You're all sweet peeps and I appreciate every last bit of the support that is shared here.

Now on with my rant. So basically in real life experiences you can get a good picture of what happened. But in short right below the 2 month HRT mark I stopped. Within 3 three days I really began to notice how much my body had changed. Then I started to smell like man again, and then muscle mass returned and I was ridiculously hungry for three days, back to 158 now-ugh. Morning wood, annoying male driven feelings about intimacy (which had gone away or at least settled quite a bit) happiness was dimmed, I was thinking about who I was everytime I saw a girl wearing a cute outfit, or hair in an elegant fix.

Well, now here I am three weeks backward because I have NO idea what I did with my meds...next week I will get refilled. Anyways, Ive worked things out with my wife to where we are being more open/honest with each other. Still planning on splitting though But I feel like I/we have passed this serious obstacle in the journey.

So I'm really excited to start again and kind of fresh, I feel like my mind a bit clearer now with some certainty to the path moving forward.

I have to ask, for those who've come off of HRT before after a short or long duration, and started again soon after, did you notice things pick up much quicker??

Hugs 💕
-Justyna

[pamelatransuk]

Hello Justyna

Sorry to hear that your wife wants to separate/divorce. I hope that you can reach an amicable friendship together if she does not change her mind before summer.

Sorry to hear you temporarily went off hormones but at least now you know that due to recent events, you must go back on them. I am glad you managed to clear you head and that you found confirmation.

I hope you soon get fixed up again with your supply of hormones. As another girl who recently started hormones, I know how relieving it is to NOT have to suffer morning wood.

I wish you all the best on your journey.

Pamela

[AutumnGurl81]

Hello Justyna

Sorry to hear that your wife wants to separate/divorce. I hope that you can reach an amicable friendship together if she does not change her mind before summer.

Sorry to hear you temporarily went off hormones but at least now you know that due to recent events, you must go back on them. I am glad you managed to clear you head and that you found confirmation.

I hope you soon get fixed up again with your supply of hormones. As another girl who recently started hormones, I know how relieving it is to NOT have to suffer morning wood.

I wish you all the best on your journey.

Pamela

Thanks Pamela

I'm really excited to be moving forward again!

[AutumnGurl81]

Back on the HRT! I started last  (scratches head) thursday, the 22 I think lol. I forgot that the first couple weeks feel a little rough, especially from the way I felt at almost two months. I'll get back there though, just keeping my eyes forward and trying one day at a time without obsession over progress. Maybe I'll mark every 3 months.

[RobynTx]

Glad you're back on hormones.  The closest I've come to that was when I ran out of Spiro for 10 days a few weeks ago.  I still had my E patches so it wasn't that bad.  I could still feel my T coming back up but that could have just been my imagination. I have noticed that since I got back on the Spiro that my genitals seem much smaller than before I ran out. But I'm glad to be back on them.  I did blood work yesterday so we'll see how much it cost me being off the Spiro for that long.

Any who, glad you are back on them and I'm very happy that you and your wife are doing better.  Keep it up.

[KayXo]

Spiro mostly seems to block testosterone so measuring levels doesn't appear to be very reliable. This was mentioned by the author of a recent study on transwomen taking spironolactone. Your levels may be high but some of that is blocked so...

[AutumnGurl81]

Glad you're back on hormones.  The closest I've come to that was when I ran out of Spiro for 10 days a few weeks ago.  I still had my E patches so it wasn't that bad.  I could still feel my T coming back up but that could have just been my imagination. I have noticed that since I got back on the Spiro that my genitals seem much smaller than before I ran out. But I'm glad to be back on them.  I did blood work yesterday so we'll see how much it cost me being off the Spiro for that long.

Any who, glad you are back on them and I'm very happy that you and your wife are doing better.  Keep it up.

Thanks Robyn! (: Yeah, its definitely been good to have then back, but also frustrating because I'm going through all the emotional and sex change stuff that hit me the first two weeks when I initially started, like spiked male sex drive for 5 days or so, eek.. Yeah Spiro def makes a difference down below for me as well. Hopefully another week of weird hormone balance torture and I'll be back to where I was.

[RobynTx]

Spiro mostly seems to block testosterone so measuring levels doesn't appear to be very reliable. This was mentioned by the author of a recent study on transwomen taking spironolactone. Your levels may be high but some of that is blocked so...

I think it's all mental for me.  I already had low T to begin with before I started HRT. 

[AutumnGurl81]

So question from those who've gone at least 3-6 months deep. I've noticed the bottom half of my face quickly started to thin out again, but...there is this line that archs from either side of my lower jaw over the top of my chin. It looks weird, and I'm assuming it's fat going away? I do have a fatty chin, and I guess around my jawline. ANYWAYS, did anyone notice weird spots on your face that filled in or balanced out down the road. I'm sure yes because it makes sense, but curious on experiences.

PS - My nipples started hurting fast. And my skin color is lighter around them because the "discs" are almost the size of cookies. That happened surprisingly fast. Only been back on for close to three weeks.

[Cassi]

Cheeks seem to be more rosey I think and there's definitely something changing in the face as I was Video calling a friend and seeing my face in the camera square blew me a way.

Kinda think I looked 10 years younger

[KayXo]

So question from those who've gone at least 3-6 months deep. I've noticed the bottom half of my face quickly started to thin out again, but...there is this line that archs from either side of my lower jaw over the top of my chin.

Normal, to be expected with E.

[AutumnGurl81]

Cheeks seem to be more rosey I think and there's definitely something changing in the face as I was Video calling a friend and seeing my face in the camera square blew me a way.

Kinda think I looked 10 years younger

Glad to hear and thx for your input

Normal, to be expected with E.

Okay, I haven't been as crazy about looking in the mirror but sometimes I just catch things, like almost suddenly. I hope my cheeks fill out and pull my face tighter lol. My skin is looking great again and starting to glow,and while it's soft, the loss of all of my lower face fat is showing in weird lines and sags.

[AutumnGurl81]

Okay but seriously, what in the actual heck...it looks like my face is melting.

https://imgur.com/a/8uIAp

[AutumnGurl81]

So two things. One, I found out that I was given the option to switch to lupron, which I think will be a healthier choice for me, and two I started the paperwork to have my named changed to Jayden! Yay! Also, my boobs ache so baaaad, but I love it! 😫😂

If any mods have the power to change title name to Jayden, I'll totally give throw some digi-hugs your way lol

[Kendra]

<hugs>   

[KayXo]

So two things. One, I found out that I was given the option to switch to lupron, which I think will be a healthier choice for me, and two I started the paperwork to have my named changed to Jayden! Yay! Also, my boobs ache so baaaad, but I love it! 😫😂

If any mods have the power to change title name to Jayden, I'll totally give throw some digi-hugs your way lol

LOVE the name and yay for the boob ache. Ditto for me...ain't it great?! 

[Chelsea]

Jayden, congrats on starting HRT!   

[RobynTx]

Congrats on everything.  Especially the boobs and the name change.

[AutumnGurl81]

Thanks all you sweet ladies! Hugs to whoever fixed the thread title, thank you! ❤️