Re: What made you happy today? For mtF members only, please. 3.0

[Roll]

BTW - about your tickler.... how about a count up tickler "since last tickler event"  So start a count up since 11/20

I think you were just struck by the best auto correct I've seen in a while.

[Allison S]

Just painted my nails i think it looks kinda cute lol idk

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[Bari Jo]

I had dinner with both my parents tonight.  They got along and it was pleasant.  This, Btw, is the first dinner since I came out to both of them.  I am home now, and am a wreck.  I'm second guessing everything.  In the moment of dinner, drinks, dessert, everything seemed like a normal parents with child dinner out, that part made me happy.

Bari Jo

[Megan.]

I had dinner with both my parents tonight.  They got along and it was pleasant.  This, Btw, is the first dinner since I came out to both of them.  I am home now, and am a wreck.  I'm second guessing everything.  In the moment of dinner, drinks, dessert, everything seemed like a normal parents with child dinner out, that part made me happy.

Bari Jo

Yay! See, the sky didn't fall in! [emoji3]

Can i ask how you were presenting? X

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[Bari Jo]

Yay! See, the sky didn't fall in! [emoji3]

Can i ask how you were presenting? X

I was in boy mode.  I thought about doing my eyes, but was afraid.  I'm not ready for presenting as full girl yet.

Bari Jo

[p]

Just painted my nails i think it looks kinda cute lol idk

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Gorgeous nails! I love the color & accent you picked out.

I had dinner with both my parents tonight.  They got along and it was pleasant.  This, Btw, is the first dinner since I came out to both of them.  I am home now, and am a wreck.  I'm second guessing everything.  In the moment of dinner, drinks, dessert, everything seemed like a normal parents with child dinner out, that part made me happy.

Bari Jo

I hope you are doing OK. Sometimes feelings surface during your transition that are difficult to process--and they will sometimes take you by surprise! Big hugs!! 

[Toni]

Bari Joe, you're doing great. Be happy for small successes, sometimes that's all we seem to get, but they all add up and suddenly we become aware of just how much has been accomplished and wonder "how the hell did that happen?"  Keep smiling!
     I just wanted to mention a couple of good things I felt I was given today.
     First, I'm doing SRS in Feb. and maybe some FFS with it, or very near to it.  The SRS in no issue anymore, but the FFS bothered me when I started to really realize the no return label on who I will be.  I turned to someone on the forum who had been kind enough to give me some sound advice before and sort of aired my fears.  She responded in a way that gave me just what I needed and I think I've gotten my head around this and moving forward with confidence as a result.  She knows how grateful I am to have just a little help when I needed it.  A gift of friendship, a gift of caring.
     Second thing was a gift from a male friend that I have done a lot of heavy male type work with as well as a lot of talking.  He's a real guy and in spite of being a hunter, biker, mountain man is also strong enough to be kind and understanding.  He knows what I'm going through and I still help him a lot with stuff he does, though it's now mostly brain work and a lot less physical.  He was over today and picking up some stuff I was getting rid of and before we finished he kind of lowered his eyes to the ground and got low voiced and stammered a bit and said "there's something I gotta ask you, I told Felicia (his wife) I was going to ask and she laughed and said "Oh, you're not really going to do that, are you?" and I told her hell yes I was, so here goes.  When you get back from all your remake and are who you gotta be, do I shake your hand or give you a kiss?"  He said it with a little grin and a twinkle in his eye.  I answered "you sure as hell better give me a kiss!"  He said "that's the answer I was looking for!" with a great big smile and we both laughed so hard and he just gave me a big hug before he left.   The gift of true friendship, the gift of laughter.
     Wish all of you could experience these sort of things, I'm sure you will in time if you haven't already.  A good day for me.  Toni     

[Sarah_P]

     Second thing was a gift from a male friend that I have done a lot of heavy male type work with as well as a lot of talking.  He's a real guy and in spite of being a hunter, biker, mountain man is also strong enough to be kind and understanding.  He knows what I'm going through and I still help him a lot with stuff he does, though it's now mostly brain work and a lot less physical.  He was over today and picking up some stuff I was getting rid of and before we finished he kind of lowered his eyes to the ground and got low voiced and stammered a bit and said "there's something I gotta ask you, I told Felicia (his wife) I was going to ask and she laughed and said "Oh, you're not really going to do that, are you?" and I told her hell yes I was, so here goes.  When you get back from all your remake and are who you gotta be, do I shake your hand or give you a kiss?"  He said it with a little grin and a twinkle in his eye.  I answered "you sure as hell better give me a kiss!"  He said "that's the answer I was looking for!" with a great big smile and we both laughed so hard and he just gave me a big hug before he left.   The gift of true friendship, the gift of laughter.
     Wish all of you could experience these sort of things, I'm sure you will in time if you haven't already.  A good day for me.  Toni   

OK, this brought tears to my eyes. That's so awesome!!
And congrats on the upcoming surgeries!

[Rachel]

Toni, I had a tear in my eye too. Wow, you have a very good couple of friends

I am happy I transitioned. I lost a lot but I gained a lot too. I do not have GD any more and I do not want to kill myself. I stood on a bridge at age 11 but now I do not have suicidal ideation. I want to look to the future and start over.

[Toni]

Yeah, I am so fortunate to have quite a few wonderful people helping me.  Not boasting, I feel incredibly humbled by them and at times am moved to tears because I find it difficult to understand their kindness.  All I can say is that we are all persons worthy of being loved.  Heartbreaks abound, I've had my share, but if you believe you are a person of value and act like you are, eventually good things WILL find you.  With all my heart I wish this for ALL my sisters.  Toni

[SiobhánF]

Bari Joe, you're doing great. Be happy for small successes, sometimes that's all we seem to get, but they all add up and suddenly we become aware of just how much has been accomplished and wonder "how the hell did that happen?"  Keep smiling!
     I just wanted to mention a couple of good things I felt I was given today.
     First, I'm doing SRS in Feb. and maybe some FFS with it, or very near to it.  The SRS in no issue anymore, but the FFS bothered me when I started to really realize the no return label on who I will be.  I turned to someone on the forum who had been kind enough to give me some sound advice before and sort of aired my fears.  She responded in a way that gave me just what I needed and I think I've gotten my head around this and moving forward with confidence as a result.  She knows how grateful I am to have just a little help when I needed it.  A gift of friendship, a gift of caring.
     Second thing was a gift from a male friend that I have done a lot of heavy male type work with as well as a lot of talking.  He's a real guy and in spite of being a hunter, biker, mountain man is also strong enough to be kind and understanding.  He knows what I'm going through and I still help him a lot with stuff he does, though it's now mostly brain work and a lot less physical.  He was over today and picking up some stuff I was getting rid of and before we finished he kind of lowered his eyes to the ground and got low voiced and stammered a bit and said "there's something I gotta ask you, I told Felicia (his wife) I was going to ask and she laughed and said "Oh, you're not really going to do that, are you?" and I told her hell yes I was, so here goes.  When you get back from all your remake and are who you gotta be, do I shake your hand or give you a kiss?"  He said it with a little grin and a twinkle in his eye.  I answered "you sure as hell better give me a kiss!"  He said "that's the answer I was looking for!" with a great big smile and we both laughed so hard and he just gave me a big hug before he left.   The gift of true friendship, the gift of laughter.
     Wish all of you could experience these sort of things, I'm sure you will in time if you haven't already.  A good day for me.  Toni     

That's beautiful! Omg, that made me a little jealous. I need a friend like that. That's true friendship at its finest.

Today was the first day at Wilford Hall at Lackland. Got my blood drawn and got some briefings on things I already knew and some I didn't know. Last part of the day, I got to talk with the head of trans-related mental health for the MMDT. Also, I got to meet a few other trans brothers and sister. What beautiful people. I can't wait to interact with them again. ^_^

[Angela Drakken]

Rocking my pink star wars pajama bottoms at work.
>.>

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[Becca Kay]

I threw out all my male underwear.

Never again! 

[sarah1972]

Picked up my kid at daycare and she had a little gift box in your hand. The lady running the daycare said: This is for you and your MOMS!!! in plural !! Still having a happy face :-)

[Devlyn]

Picked up my kid at daycare and she had a little gift box in your hand. The lady running the daycare said: This is for you and your MOMS!!! in plural !! Still having a happy face :-)

Yays! I didn't reply to your other post because I couldn't figure out the unhappy part! 

Hugs, Devlyn

[Bari Jo]

I got happy today and now also landed  in a strange state.  I've had my Mom visit for the past week.  On the very first night I came out to her, and we had long talks about my feelings and history.  The whole time I was sure she was supportive and confirmed that this morning.  She hugged me before she left and said I should transition and she's glad I am deciding to work toward my own happiness. This is all good.  I got a bit choked up.  What kills me is I'm entering a phase of questioning if I'm doing the right thing.  I honestly can't imagine not doing it now, but I'm  questioning my end result.  Argh, this ride sometimes sucks and is sometimes awesome.  At least I can say my mom is firmly in my corner.  Where's my magic wand dammit.

Bari Jo

[sarah1972]

Yays! I didn't reply to your other post because I couldn't figure out the unhappy part! 

Hugs, Devlyn

Too excited so I picked the first thread with "happy" in it [emoji23]

[Laurie]

  Bari Jo,

   I read your post and smiled at the part where you said your mom is firmly in your corner. That should make you happy. It's wonderful. That questioning however is never a fun part and unfortunately a lot of us fight internal wars with ourselves because of it. The trick it to know you are doing what is right and those doubts will go away. Unfortunately there is no magic wand but rest assured the if there was I would pass it on to you once it worked it's magic on me. lol  How I wish there were a land of rainbows and stars and unicorns where everyone could live out their dreams.

[Laurie]

Too excited so I picked the first thread with "happy" in it [emoji23]

It's good to be happy, Sarah.

[sarah1972]

So happy for you  accepting mom Bari Jo!

We all have these doubt phases. You are on the right track!

I got happy today and now also landed  in a strange state.  I've had my Mom visit for the past week.  On the very first night I came out to her, and we had long talks about my feelings and history.  The whole time I was sure she was supportive and confirmed that this morning.  She hugged me before she left and said I should transition and she's glad I am deciding to work toward my own happiness. This is all good.  I got a bit choked up.  What kills me is I'm entering a phase of questioning if I'm doing the right thing.  I honestly can't imagine not doing it now, but I'm  questioning my end result.  Argh, this ride sometimes sucks and is sometimes awesome.  At least I can say my mom is firmly in my corner.  Where's my magic wand dammit.

Bari Jo