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Re: What made you happy today? For mtF members only, please. 3.0

Started by Denise, September 18, 2017, 09:25:20 PM

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Bari Jo

Yeah, that will be fun to practice the female speech patterns.

If someone wants to add Chan when referring to me, fine by me:)
you know how far the universe extends outward? i think i go inside just as deep.

10/11/18 - out to the whole world.  100% friends and family support.
11/6/17 - came out to sister, best day of my life
9/5/17 - formal diagnosis and stopping DIY in favor if prescribed HRT
6/18/17 - decided to stop fighting the trans beast, back on DIY.
Too many ups and downs, DIY, purges of self inbetween dates.
Age 10 - suppression and denial began
Age 8 - knew I was different
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RobynTx

So last night was the big night.  My wife and I went to a concert in Dallas to see Imagine Dragons.  I went as my true self for the first time in public.  I wore a pretty out fit, black pencil skirt, long sleeve maroon top, maroon tights and black knee high boots.  Wife did the majority of the makeup and I topped it off with a black head band.  It went splendid.  I got ma'amed by the guard at the entrance.  Maybe a few double stares but no comments that either of us heard.  The concert was great, better than the one a couple of years ago.  While I'm not ready to go full time at this time I did have a wonderful experience and can't wait to do it again.  But I can't wait to go full time and just drop this stupid male persona.


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Sinead

I've written down a list of doubts I have about being trans, i.e I don't experience gender dysphoria all of the time, I don't hate my body, I don't hate being males

All of my answers to those doubts point to being 100% trans... I don't really have a lot to be happy about today, lol

I also can't help but think, in an alternate universe, there's a female version of me, and she's really happy and being herself... admittedly, I've been watching a lot of Stranger Things recently
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KathyLauren

I went for my weekly electrolysis today.  This was the second session on the lower lip using dental anesthetic.  My electrologist was really happy with how both it and last week's session went.  She says I won't have to shave there again.   ;D 

I'm not sure I 100% believe her, because won't there be another set of follicles coming out of hibernation in a few months?  But anyway, not having to shave a spot, even if it is just for a while, is a good thing.
2015-07-04 Awakening; 2015-11-15 Out to self; 2016-06-22 Out to wife; 2016-10-27 First time presenting in public; 2017-01-20 Started HRT!!; 2017-04-20 Out publicly; 2017-07-10 Legal name change; 2019-02-15 Approval for GRS; 2019-08-02 Official gender change; 2020-03-11 GRS; 2020-09-17 New birth certificate
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Sarah_P

Quote from: Roll on November 14, 2017, 09:33:05 AM
You get the cute feminine honorific! ;D Oh, oh! Or we could go super anime stylish and you can be Bari-hime!

Which... wow, never thought of this. I am going to have to practice Japanese using female speech patterns and pronouns. No more boku for me!

Even better, if she's a dominatrix type (or royalty), she can be Bari-Joou!  ;D

I hadn't thought about that for Japanese. Due to lack of practice, I'm not great at speaking or writing it, but I can understand quite a bit & read it just fine. Let's see.... we get to say 'atashi' referring to ourselves, and use 'gomen', too. That's all I can think of off the top of my head right now, but I know there's a lot more. Oh, and we need to give chocolate to guys we like on Valentine's day.
--Sarah P

There's a world out there, just waiting
If you only let go what's inside
Live every moment, give it your all, enjoy the ride
- Stan Bush, The Journey



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Sarah_P

Quote from: NinaW on November 14, 2017, 12:20:25 PM
I've written down a list of doubts I have about being trans, i.e I don't experience gender dysphoria all of the time, I don't hate my body, I don't hate being males

All of my answers to those doubts point to being 100% trans... I don't really have a lot to be happy about today, lol

I also can't help but think, in an alternate universe, there's a female version of me, and she's really happy and being herself... admittedly, I've been watching a lot of Stranger Things recently

That's not an alternate universe, that's your own future!
--Sarah P

There's a world out there, just waiting
If you only let go what's inside
Live every moment, give it your all, enjoy the ride
- Stan Bush, The Journey



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Bari Jo

Quote from: Sarah_P on November 14, 2017, 01:36:45 PM
Even better, if she's a dominatrix type (or royalty), she can be Bari-Joou!  ;D

I hadn't thought about that for Japanese. Due to lack of practice, I'm not great at speaking or writing it, but I can understand quite a bit & read it just fine. Let's see.... we get to say 'atashi' referring to ourselves, and use 'gomen', too. That's all I can think of off the top of my head right now, but I know there's a lot more. Oh, and we need to give chocolate to guys we like on Valentine's day.

I'd love to be a cute dominatrix!  I might have to settle for royalty though:)

I never learned that one. That's really cool.

Bari Jo
you know how far the universe extends outward? i think i go inside just as deep.

10/11/18 - out to the whole world.  100% friends and family support.
11/6/17 - came out to sister, best day of my life
9/5/17 - formal diagnosis and stopping DIY in favor if prescribed HRT
6/18/17 - decided to stop fighting the trans beast, back on DIY.
Too many ups and downs, DIY, purges of self inbetween dates.
Age 10 - suppression and denial began
Age 8 - knew I was different
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tgirlamg

Quote from: NinaW on November 14, 2017, 12:20:25 PM
I've written down a list of doubts I have about being trans, i.e I don't experience gender dysphoria all of the time, I don't hate my body, I don't hate being males

All of my answers to those doubts point to being 100% trans... I don't really have a lot to be happy about today, lol

I also can't help but think, in an alternate universe, there's a female version of me, and she's really happy and being herself... admittedly, I've been watching a lot of Stranger Things recently

All will be well Nina!!! Amazing things lay ahead!!!

Hugs!!!

Ashley :)
"To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment" ... Ralph Waldo Emerson 🌸

"The individual has always had to struggle from being overwhelmed by the tribe... But, no price is too high for the privilege of owning yourself" ... Rudyard Kipling 🌸

Let go of the things that no longer serve you... Let go of the pretense of the false persona, it is not you... Let go of the armor that you have worn for a lifetime, to serve the expectations of others and, to protect the woman inside... She needs protection no longer.... She is tired of hiding and more courageous than you know... Let her prove that to you....Let her step out of the dark and feel the light upon her face.... amg🌸

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I Am Jess

Quote from: NinaW on November 14, 2017, 12:20:25 PM
I've written down a list of doubts I have about being trans, i.e I don't experience gender dysphoria all of the time, I don't hate my body, I don't hate being males

All of my answers to those doubts point to being 100% trans... I don't really have a lot to be happy about today, lol

I also can't help but think, in an alternate universe, there's a female version of me, and she's really happy and being herself... admittedly, I've been watching a lot of Stranger Things recently

Incredible things happen when you put "her" in charge of your life.  I now fully live in that alternate universe and it is amazing and yes I am really happy.  You can be too.....
Follow my life's adventures on Instagram - @jessieleeannmcgrath
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Denise

Quote from: NinaW on November 14, 2017, 12:20:25 PM
I've written down a list of doubts I have about being trans, i.e I don't experience gender dysphoria all of the time, I don't hate my body, I don't hate being males

All of my answers to those doubts point to being 100% trans... I don't really have a lot to be happy about today, lol

I also can't help but think, in an alternate universe, there's a female version of me, and she's really happy and being herself... admittedly, I've been watching a lot of Stranger Things recently

I was in your same position 27 months ago.  Exactly the same.  25 months ago I could think of nothing else but my gender being wrong.  I wasn't mad/upset/... about being AMAB I just wanted to be Female. It got so bad that I couldn't concentrate, my work was suffering and even driving was kinda hazardous.

Months of therapy and a lot of tears I started HRT and ... long story.... today I've never been more at peace.  I don't think about my gender at all anymore. It's strange.  That little voice in my head is totally GONE! 

No regrets.
BUT this is my story.  Yours may/will be different
1st Person out: 16-Oct-2015
Restarted Spironolactone 26-Aug-2016
Restarted Estradiol Valerate: 02-Nov-2016
Full time: 02-Mar-2017
Breast Augmentation (Schechter): 31-Oct-2017
FFS (Walton in Chicago): 25-Sep-2018
Vaginoplasty (Schechter): 13-Dec-2018









A haiku in honor of my grandmother who loved them.
The Voices are Gone
Living Life to the Fullest
I am just Denise
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p

Quote from: RobynTx on November 14, 2017, 11:48:13 AM
So last night was the big night.  My wife and I went to a concert in Dallas to see Imagine Dragons.  I went as my true self for the first time in public.  I wore a pretty out fit, black pencil skirt, long sleeve maroon top, maroon tights and black knee high boots.  Wife did the majority of the makeup and I topped it off with a black head band.  It went splendid.  I got ma'amed by the guard at the entrance.  Maybe a few double stares but no comments that either of us heard.  The concert was great, better than the one a couple of years ago.  While I'm not ready to go full time at this time I did have a wonderful experience and can't wait to do it again.  But I can't wait to go full time and just drop this stupid male persona.

It sounds like the big night was a big success--congratulations! Your outfit sounds lovely. Isn't getting ma'amed the best?! Savor this great experience as you prepare for full time. Big hugs!
Patti

Something is off - 2016-17
Out to husband - 2/14/17
Full-time - 3/9/17
HRT - 6/14/17
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sarah1972

I just had the greatest male fail so far...

A few weeks ago I updated my profile picture on Facebook on my old male account I still use as primary.

Today I posted something in a group I am a member in and 2 minutes later I got a "Thanks you Ms. <last name>."...

Totally made my day!!!

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Sinead

Quote from: Denise on November 15, 2017, 07:21:58 PM
I was in your same position 27 months ago.  Exactly the same.  25 months ago I could think of nothing else but my gender being wrong.  I wasn't mad/upset/... about being AMAB I just wanted to be Female. It got so bad that I couldn't concentrate, my work was suffering and even driving was kinda hazardous.

Months of therapy and a lot of tears I started HRT and ... long story.... today I've never been more at peace.  I don't think about my gender at all anymore. It's strange.  That little voice in my head is totally GONE! 

No regrets.
BUT this is my story.  Yours may/will be different

That's all I want for myself, to be at peace and be 100% sure, I can't wait till that day, I feel so comfortable dressed as a female
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Artesia

23667458_1746539178984228_305979927_n by Claire Labus, on Flickr

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23634962_1746539168984229_1911117432_n by Claire Labus, on Flickr

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I finally managed to get my ears pierced!

23618955_1746382058999940_2079578245_n by Claire Labus, on Flickr
The lovely lady who was there to get it done with and for me.  It was what we did on our date!

The date went well also.  It was nice being pampered the way she did for me.  We had so much fun!

Almost forgot about one of my coworkers.  She told me that she likes me better as a woman than as a man.  Apparently I was very off putting as a male.  She thinks I'm more personable now.
All the worlds a joke, and the people, merely punchlines

September 13, 2016 HRT start date
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Bari Jo

Yay Artesia, looks like you were happy and wincing there.  Did it hurt?

Bari Jo
you know how far the universe extends outward? i think i go inside just as deep.

10/11/18 - out to the whole world.  100% friends and family support.
11/6/17 - came out to sister, best day of my life
9/5/17 - formal diagnosis and stopping DIY in favor if prescribed HRT
6/18/17 - decided to stop fighting the trans beast, back on DIY.
Too many ups and downs, DIY, purges of self inbetween dates.
Age 10 - suppression and denial began
Age 8 - knew I was different
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Sarah_P

Artesia, I've never seen someone smile that big while wincing! Congrats on your great day!
Also, I love that necklace!
--Sarah P

There's a world out there, just waiting
If you only let go what's inside
Live every moment, give it your all, enjoy the ride
- Stan Bush, The Journey



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KathyLauren

Yes, pic #4 could be titled "That hurts so good!"  Congratulations, Artesia.
2015-07-04 Awakening; 2015-11-15 Out to self; 2016-06-22 Out to wife; 2016-10-27 First time presenting in public; 2017-01-20 Started HRT!!; 2017-04-20 Out publicly; 2017-07-10 Legal name change; 2019-02-15 Approval for GRS; 2019-08-02 Official gender change; 2020-03-11 GRS; 2020-09-17 New birth certificate
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Artesia

What can I say...I'm a special kind of girl.

The necklace was on clearance at Walmart for $3.  If your lucky you can still find one.


Yes Bari Jo, I thought it hurt, the first one done more so than the second.  The girl doing it said that the second one hurts more.
All the worlds a joke, and the people, merely punchlines

September 13, 2016 HRT start date
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Michelle_P

Yaaay for taking care of yourself and having a special day, Artesia!

I did something like that as well.  After a really rough day, I spent a little 'me time' yesterday, and got my nails and brows done properly.  It's been a month, and with the hospital stay and home confinement for a while in recovery from my GCS, things were more than a little ragged.

I felt so much better after this, and walking in a little mist and light rain.  Plus, boot and sweater season! 


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Earth my body, water my blood, air my breath and fire my spirit.

My personal transition path included medical changes.  The path others take may require no medical intervention, or different care.  We each find our own path. I provide these dates for the curious.
Electrolysis - Hours in The Chair: 238 (8.5 were preparing for GCS, five clearings); On estradiol patch June 2016; Full-time Oct 22, 2016; GCS Oct 20, 2017; FFS Aug 28, 2018; Stage 2 labiaplasty revision and BA Feb 26, 2019
Michelle's personal blog and biography
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RobynTx

Quote from: p on November 15, 2017, 09:37:29 PM
It sounds like the big night was a big success--congratulations! Your outfit sounds lovely. Isn't getting ma'amed the best?! Savor this great experience as you prepare for full time. Big hugs!

Thanks.  Yes the Ma'am caught me off guard but I did smile.


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