Non-op. Breast augmentation as a priority

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Hello,
this website was one of the websites that gave me support when I needed it. I read here but I post seldom.

Long story short, after a long time in therapy and being quite a while on hormones already, I figured out what my path is.

I identify as a non-op trans woman.

I have no desire for SRS. I hate having my penis interacted with during sex, I hate morning wood and erections in general, but my genital dysphoria is quite mild for the rest.
Srs is not a requirement for me.


I figured out that breast augmentation is my biggest desire and that that surgery will bring me most satisfaction.

I feel very good on hormone therapy and love it's effects.
I feminized well on it already and can pass quite well.

I want some minor FFS and breast augmentation.

I'm paying a small fee every month ( 120$ ) to undergo breast augmentation. The breast augmentation costs 3000$. I will have to pay another 20 months and then I can get it. That way my own bosom has maxed out and results will look most natural when the implant has most tissue to work with.

My face is a lot less a source of dysphoria than before the effects of hormones kicked in. There are only a few minor things that still bother me about my face :

I want to have brow bossing removal and nose corrective surgery. I would also like plumpier lips. For the rest I'm very happy with my face already. My cheeks filled out nicely and I have actual protruding cheekbones and a nice complexion. My eyes also changed shape strange enough. I love it. I love those little patches that I can replace every three days. It feels like a little trip to Disneyworld each time I may apply a new one.
My body is collaborating : I'm on a low dose in patch form and no anti-androgens. My T fell of a cliff quite quickly and my E has nicely risen to upper female ranges.
The boobies are still super sore. I'm a full B-cup. I want breast augmentation because it will give me more cleavage and more straight forward projection.
I also tried progesterone and Spironolactone but I didn't find any benefits to these last two, so my doctor took me off them. My T is still super low and my E nicely high with Estradiol patch only. I'm happy that my liver has an easier time now that I only have to take low doses.

In the beginning I doubted a lot about undergoing SRS but I actually feel no benefit for me in SRS. I don't like the invasiveness of the procedure. The hard recovery, anaesthesia, dilating,... I'm happy being non-op. The only problem it gives is that I am straight and not at all into women. I only date men. I would also hate it if someone wanted to interact with my penis during sex. I bought a silicone prosthetic vagina so that I can cover the penis up. I'm at my happiest when I don't need to be confronted with my penis. I tuck daily.
I'm really happy that it's shrinking massively. It looks like two labia and a clitoris. That much it shrank. The smell also changed to a more vaginal smell. That helps with the dysphoria as well.
I tuck every day for at least 12 hours per day.

Overall, my mental health is actually well. It's been an emotional roller coaster but I'm happy with the effects of HRT.
I'm happy that I decided to let go on SRS. It's not for me, that procedure.

I'm happy with what hormones did and now some minor FFS and a breast augmentation and I found my mental peace on the spectrum.
I am thinking about an orchiectomy too. That sounds like the great middle way for me. I would also be less worried about testicular cancer.

But I will never go further than an orchiectomy.
I fall somewhere between male and female on the spectrum. I prefer to live as a woman though. So somewhere in the 70% female and 30% male region I guess.

I'm elated that I gave myself this peace of mind.

I'm studying law, see a future for myself as a sexy lawyer and can't stop checking the cute boys out during the courses * Bad girl * .

Estrogen has made me hunker for warmth and physical attention too :-)

Anyone else with a similar experience to mine?

I seam to be an outlier with my being non-op. It seams like most plan on SRS sometime in their life.

[Jessica]

I'm into my 8th month of hrt and have not yet convinced myself that I need srs to feel fulfilled.  That said, the operative word is yet.
Every day is a new day and the path is in front of me.  There are twists and turns on most paths, so who knows what tomorrow brings.
I have different reasons that have kept me from requiring srs, everyone has their own personal slant on things.
I think for myself I hope to be able to pass in public unflinchingly.  The limited experience I've had tells me I can be very comfortable in public with no qualms, but I haven't progressed enough to help in not getting clocked.  My avatar is taken on a wonderful day out with two women here at Susan's. 

I think you are at a good point that when you get your funds together for your BA that you'll be ready!

Hugs, Jess

[I Am Jess]

When I started my transition 3 years ago I felt I would never want GRS.  Something changed in me as I underwent my transition and after 18 months I took the plunge and had the surgery.  I couldn't be happier.  I know that we each have our own road to travel and we all have individual choices to make and the only right choice is the one that works for you.  I think that my BA helped to push me in to the GRS mind set.  The more feminine I got the more I couldn't see my self continuing without having a vagina.  BA was a priority for me too.  I actually got it 6 months after starting my transition and it helped tremendously. 

Good luck with your legal studies!  We need more sexy lawyers   (I'm one btw)

[deanna7506]

Thanks for sharing your plan. I suspect once you have your BA, you might change your mind like Jess did. Best wishes on carrying out your plan.

[warlockmaker]

This is a very acceptable way to be tg female. I live in Bangkok and many of my tg friends have opted to go this way and are content and successful. For them its the FFS, BA and implants that defines who they are. There are no boundries or rules we are required to follow so just chose your path.

[Chloe]

I want some minor FFS and breast augmentation.

          Transfused Great Summation! Pretty much agree with every item! I suspect there's more of us 'old school' straight transgirls out there than the LGB T community would care to suggest! As regards desire for SRS there's no way I'm spending DAYS on a plane (lol even if First Class free?) been lately trying to find more info on Brasil's Dr. Marcio Littleton

Someone mentioned 41,000Real which is approx $12,000 US.

120 day on-line Visa for Rio is easy enough am considering making the trip for a FFS consultation, best way to really check someone out?  Wanna come along? *sigh* Finding time to get away another story!