Quote from: Chelsea on May 17, 2018, 09:45:41 PM
Had Another Great Day!
It started off with work and more work. 
After all that I went to mom's as always I check on her every day. Alivia cooked dinner and we all sit around and had a good time. About 2 hours later Alivia went back home and spent the next two hours with mom. I did the impossible and told my mother I'm transgender. I didn't just up and say "I'm transgender" I had to explain to her everything. If I had not done it this way she would have just gotten angry because she had a different outlook on transgender people until today.
At the time all the boys my age hit puberty and had a growth spurt, I did not. All the guys around me had harry legs and muscles and I was still like a kid. My mother takes me then to a doctor in Knoxville that give me testosterone shots for a month or so to "kick start me" the doctor said. I never told mom but after about 2 or 3 months after those shots is when I started having my first gender thoughts. I sit down today and told her everything that has been going through my head from that moment. She just sit and listen to me the entire time without getting emotional or angry. (Like I thought)
After I was done she ask me a lot of questions and end the end her last comment was "I just want you happy and I love you." Just like my brother I did not think this was going to go well. I would not have told her if it wasn't for the stress I have been under this week over finances. I was to the point of "It can't get any worse". She said It's gonna take some getting used to so I'm not going to take Chelsea around her just yet. I am so lucky to have her still in my life.
So good news.............. I'm OUT!! I don't have to hide anymore!! 
BIG Hugs
Chelsea
@Chelsea .... wow, that is a great and wonderful report from you today.... what a difference that a day or two can make. I know that besides me that there were lots of your readers very worried about you.
It is so very good to hear a happy and positive vibe coming from you this evening.
Oh yeah, isn't it like a big weight is now off of you shoulders after coming out to your mother??? Enjoy the peace about your transition journey now. It was nice that your mother had a good reaction to your announcement and you were wise to not just blurt out that you are transgender, instead you took the time to explain your feelings and the how and why... again, very smart move on your part.
Regarding your childhood as a boy or young man, I had similar problems, in high school and in college I was a skinny runt of a guy, no muscles, no bulk, very short, only 5'4"... 5'5" if I fluffed up my hair... I had a soft girlish face, and a voice to match. very light and thin body and face hair and basically looked like a flat chested girl. I was constantly and rudely bullied and had a difficult time being around my male classmates because they had turned into men with bulk, muscles, tall height, face and body hair, and deep male voices. The locker room scene was torture. All of that, of course worked in my favor as I transitioned in my early 30's. Even the girls I dated noticed and commented on all of that.... not exactly what a guy wants to hear from a potential girlfriend.
Some of what was going on with me sounds similar to some of your story too.
Wow, and you reported that you have "work and more work" ... hopefully that turns into proceeds and profit for your business and you can start getting caught up.... another big burden lifted!!!
Thanks for reporting in and your wonderful update.
Hugs and hugs,
Danielle.
