Hi, I’m Whiskey

[Whiskey]

Hello, all. I'm brand spanking new here. To start, I'm not 100% sure that I am trans. I might be a trans woman, I might be gender fluid. I was identified as male at birth. It's hard to know how much of what I feel is not the result of a toxic culture and how much I am independently of such things. I've always hated society's expectations for masculinity. I've conditioned myself to act "normal" or whatever you want to call how cis men react to the world. I want to be express myself in more feminine ways, like clothing and mannerisms. However, when I think about transitioning (with hrt) I am very pessimistic about tangible results, given my age (38). Also, I can't help but think (since society has dramatically lower standards for male attractiveness) that I would be a very unattractive woman. I realize 1. That's NOT what it's about and 2. It's probably a very common concern. I just want a new body. 🤦🏻‍♀️

[Jessica]

Hi Whisky 🙋‍♀️ Welcome to Susan's Place!  I'm Jessica.  I myself identify as gender fluid or non binary.  I feel a bond that is between the poles of gender mannerisms.  I can move on that scale when I want.  I do feel I'm closer to being on the feminine end than I am with the other.  If you are wondering who you are, I suggest a good next step is to find a qualified gender therapist.  If you are here , chances are you need to explore.  Susan's is full of information that can help you.

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[Devlyn]

Hi Whiskey, welcome to Susan's Place! Today's your lucky day, all the genderfluid people are
doing introductions.   

Get busy posting and I'll see you around the site!

Hugs, Devlyn

[V M]

Hi Whiskey 

Welcome to Susan's Place    Glad to have you here, join on in the fun

Hugs

V M

[ChrissyRyan]

Hi Whiskey,


Welcome! 



Chrissy

[JulieAllana]

Hi Whiskey,
    I let the idea that I would be a horrible, ugly, beastly nothing of a woman keep me from admitting to myself that I could transition.  I weighed 320 pounds and just thought there was no future in it for me.  One day after seeing a multitude of before/after pictures of men that I never thought could be beautiful women turn into BEAUTIFUL women, I decided that I could transition too.  Would I be beautiful, maybe...maybe not, but I could no longer hide my desire to transition from myself.  Here we are a month and a half later and I am seeing a therapist, have started going out presenting as a woman and have lost nearly 50 pounds.  I am out to my mother, wife and some friends and I plan on starting HRT after another 50 pounds, hopefully in a few months.  Also, I might not be able to wait that long and start sooner. 
    Anyway, the point is I used to think just like you and I think I was waaay wrong!  At this point for me it isn't about being pretty, but being in the body that makes me feel right.  As most here will tell you, a therapist will help you sort out through it all...mine certainly has.

        Hugs
             Julie

[Chelsea]

Hi Whiskey!

I thought the same way as you for years. I have found out that it is never too late. I am about the same age as
you (39) and for the most of my life tried my best to be "manly" with no luck. I hated the way I looked for years.
That's all about to change. I'm out to my GF and my best friend so far. I plan on starting HRT as soon as I can.
Even though I haven't started my transition just yet I have my first appointment set for Monday to see a therapist.

Hugs ,
        Chelsea