Hello Susan's Place...I've been lurking here for a while and often stumbled upon old forum threads just through Google, and since this place seems relatively active and my life is speeding up (also relatively) I figured I would take a step and join. My name is Victor, I'm 18 and FtM, and will be starting college this fall. In a way I feel like I picked a bad time to come out to myself since I won't be home long enough to get therapy, nor am I independent enough to make major changes at the moment. I mostly come because none of the support/resource groups in my area are easy to get to or attend, so the internet is the next best option.
It's strange. My whole life I've seen my ideal self as male, and I've even met several trans boys and men of whom I was jealous for the longest time. But when I sat down and realized that I could become that ideal self for real, I tried so hard to convince myself I was delusional. I will be trying to find a therapist or counselor when I am away at school. I am very, very fortunate in that my area is rich in LGBT resources and support, which has helped immensely in sorting out my initial feelings, but before I even think of going on T I feel it best to speak with a professional. Until then I am looking for ways to start presenting as male...the less permanent ways like binding my chest and wearing my hair short. I am currently in the process of coming out to people, though my family is not included in that group for the time being.
I know I'm on the younger end of things, so I might not be the most talkative, but this website has already helped me a ton, so I'm happy to be here.
