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Started by Kokoro, March 04, 2018, 08:53:22 AM

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Kokoro

After very recently accepting myself after years of denial and/or ignorance, I've found myself in a unique, and possibly lucky situation.

I'm originally from the UK, but currently live abroad. I've fulfilled a decade-long dream to live in another country and experience another culture, but after several months here I became unsettled and the gender dysphoria started again. (See the back end of my intro post for more detail). Mixed with a dissatisfaction with my job I've decided to move back to the UK. But when I go back I'm going to transition. Within a week I'll be asking my GP for a referral to a gender clinic, and in the meantime intend on beginning hormone treatment privately (private healthcare vs. NHS, not self-medicated).

Now, I will initially be moving back in with my parents but soon after hope to get my own place. And here is the dilemma:

My Dad wants to use his connections to get me re-certified to drive trucks so I can be a trucker. It's a remnant of past efforts to masculinise myself. This is partly my own fault since when asked what I would do job-wise when I returned I said 'drive trucks again' offhandedly. It will cost less than usual due to him knowing the right people but it is still a large chunk of money that may not see much return due to my impending transition. Although it is a job I can do, it's not one I really want due to the 'working bloke' culture that runs through a lot of blue collar jobs. I'm not sure whether to just go with it and hide my transition until it becomes obvious and then change jobs or just get another job to start with where it may be easier to transition. (Though this would likely make my Dad unhappy).

So my first question is should I work at a job I know I will eventually have to quit or apply for ones I like where I could possibly transition on the job?

Second question: Are there any jobs, or industries that are more trans-friendly than others? I have a degree in English Language & Linguistics but other than being an English teacher I have no idea how to put it to use.

3rd and final question: I have a chance to move more or less anywhere I like in the country. My hometown is a traditional working class town, rather homo/transphobic and I wouldn't feel comfortable there. I'd like to move back to my university city if possible. Its a student city with 2 separate Universities and over 25% of the populace made up of students, has at least some sort of LGBT scene and is also home to my proffered gender identity clinic which I have attended in the past. (The city is Sheffield if anyone has been there). However, I'll be completely on my own, away from family, and all my Uni friends have moved away too. So I'd go through my transition completely by myself. Which is of course very daunting.

Any input would be appreciated.

Sorry for the long post. I do tend to ramble. :-X
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Elis

I'm in the UK and worked a job when I was pre everything. I wouldn't wish the amount of stress or anxiety/dysphoria that resulted from that on anybody. You have to put yourself first.  Your dad isn't the one that has to suffer through that. So definitely choose a job where you're known as being trans.

Not sure how to answer the 2nd question I'm afraid :/.  Best to just look online for jobs you could possibly be interested in. Good think about the UK is we have the Equality Act 2010;  so most of the time you shouldn't get any hassle for being trans. And most people I've found are tolerant.

As for the 3rd I'm sure you can find lgbt or trans groups to join. Try searching fb or meet up.com to see what's out there.
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Dena

In the U.S. there are women truck drivers and while not common, it is an acceptable profession. The real question is what do you want to do for the rest of your life. I was lucky and discovered programming while I was in college and I have had over 40 years of enjoyment in that profession. On the other hand, I have heard of people getting a degree in something like physics and they are now driving a cab. Picking a new profession might mean you need to start at the bottom and work your way up but you could be doing the same thing 20 or 30 years from now so it's best to have a profession where it's a joy to get up in the morning.
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bobbisue

     Hi and welcome I am nowhere near the UK I am in the middle of the Canadian prairies so i can't give you ant advice on where to move other than to say is follow your heart if your family are supportive it may be worth being close to them if they are unsupportive or worse you may be better off where there is a community for you as for blue collar work if it is what you enjoy or must do it is not so bad I am a mechanic and have been out at work since December without an issue most people don't care as long as you do your job and are not hard to work with 
     for the long term find something you enjoy doing for a career, once you pay the bills and your needs the rest is just window dressing anyway

     bobbisue :)
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Chloe

Quote from: Kokoro on March 04, 2018, 08:53:22 AM
So my first question is should I work at a job I know I will eventually have to quit or apply for ones I like where I could possibly transition on the job?
Kokoro I've driven trucks on/off almost my entire working life and now positively HATE IT! Been at my current pre-retirement job three years now and if it pays the bills, gets you by I say go-for-it. Are you required to do much loading/unloading? Heavy lifting combined with stressful "steering wheel holding" is not my idea of healthy exercise! Am 30 year retired from airline pax handling/ramp operations and miss the active life have put on weight/lost strength since leaving it.
          As far as transition goes I am free to 'do and be' as I please . . . "there's your truck we'll see ya in the afternoon when time to go home"! I drive a classic CAT powered Peterbilt tandem dump which makes life easier do NOT like most "tanks" I see rolling down the road! Especially the "new" automatic ones! Do not recommend OTR I work construction job site / local business delivery with new residential thrown in for good measure.
          How are yer programming skills? Dena is right IT seems to be infested with LGBT but pick a job solely based on that? There's FREE online coursera.org that will test your math skills am currently struggling with Stanford U's Machine Learning have always been interested in A.I. since the first invention of the IBM 8086 PC!
          Location isn't everything. If family might be supportive of your TG inclinations sticking close to home can certainly make life easier. My father was "working class" and proved very accepting of me in his is old age . . . a glorified "truck driver" if you will of Boeing 747's!
          Times are changing . . . My father's best pilot friend I grew up with in the late 60's was forced to resign due to being "a transsexual" but good help is fast becoming harder to find - if very good at whatever you choose chances are they'll get over it!

(p.s. Apparently teaching is not what it's cracked up to be. My nephew of 40 something odd years recently gave up his "chosen career" (due student apathy, frustrations) to become a cop, a Georgia State Trooper? Oh, and BTW, I was a history major, love classic literature but . . .)
"But it's no use now," thought poor Alice, "to pretend be two people!
"Why, there's hardly enough of me left to make one respectable person!"
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Kokoro

Thanks for the replies everyone.

I've got a couple of months to decide but I'm leaning more to moving away. I've also since learned that 2 of my cousins who work in Sheffield are likely to move there sometime this year (they currently commute from my hometown). They're both a little younger than me and very open minded and we used to get along really well before I moved away for Uni. So as far as family/familiar faces go, that might fit the bill.

Next thing I need to consider is how to break the news to my parents. I'm thinking maybe snail mail to my mother and letting her broach the subject with my dad. This is what she suggested 6 years ago when I first tried to come out before doing a 180. Then hopefully a 1 on 1 skype convo with just her... and then I don't really know from there.

I need to figure it out soon though because as soon as my Dad knows the date I'm coming home he will be wanting to put me on the next available course, and I don't want to lead him on.
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Chloe

Quote from: Kokoro on March 05, 2018, 07:36:36 AM

Next thing I need to consider is how to break the news to my parents.

          My suggestion is "don't sweat it" I'll bet they love you very much. After wanting to know why I had Spironolactone to give her when asked my older sister Patti (a nurse) just laughed, said 'we' knew there was something "special" about you all along.

          By way of encouragement father's response, via my private diary, is here. While certainly a burden always viewed "beings trans" as a gift from "the gods", something to be nurtured & cherished accordingly. It's only a curse if can't deal, you make it out to be one!

Quote from: Matthew 19:11-12Jesus replied, "Not everyone can accept this word, but only those to whom it has been given. For some are [castrated males] because they were born that way; others were made that way by men; and others have renounced marriage because of the kingdom of heaven. The one who can accept this should accept it."

          Sorry if don't subscribe to "religious" way of thinking - mother was very much so and got my History BA from a Jesuit Catholic University (it's was ingrained from day one!)
"But it's no use now," thought poor Alice, "to pretend be two people!
"Why, there's hardly enough of me left to make one respectable person!"
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