Well today was my day and I was able to tell her all about me, the real me. I can't believe it but we're going to be okay. We're going to be TOGETHER. I cannot express how overjoyed I am. Words simply fail.
Oh lord, it wasn't easy, you know that. She cried, I cried, we cried. She was angry (not at me, just at life), she was scared, she was confused, but through it all she kept her strength and, for once in my life, I seemed to only say what was needed and NOT stupid things that weren't.
She's asking questions now, not a lot, but she's asking so I'm answering everything she wants to know. I told her I won't keep anything from her anymore, she deserves that. The time for hiding things is OVER.
She's still scared. Scared they're going to fire me once they know, scared someone will murder me for being trans. But unbelievably what she's most scared of is that I will leave HER. Can you believe that?!
Most of all she was sad though. Not sad for selfish things but sad for ME having to live a half life for all my life. Who hears this kind of news and feels sad for the person who just threw their life into chaos? An amazing lady, my Dianne, the most incredible woman in the world. I guess that's who does.
