New and feeling rejected

[Nikkimn]

I'm sitting in the dark home and alone right now wondering if this is how others feel when people treat them like they don't exist. I just had an evening out at a restaurant and was never greeted, never talked to and people avoided me like I wasn't even there. I think I'd have preferred being confronted for being trans rather than the passive aggressive treatment I received.

Thoughts running through my head right now are is this worth it? Will I always be treated like a sub-human? Will anyone want to be my friend ever again?

Struggling right now.. Only six weeks on HRT and feeling very alone and rejected.

[Northern Star Girl]

Hello Nikkimn: Allow me to WELCOME to SUSAN'S PLACE... this is the place to be is you are having transition issues as you described in your introduction post.   There are others here that can identify with you and can share their insights with you as you share your insights with them....
Again, Welcome to Susan's
Danielle

[Northern Star Girl]

Nikkimn:  You will find this a safe and friendly place to share with others about your transition and to read about others transitions and their trials, tribulations, and successes in their transition journey. 
It is nice that you have signed up so you can share with others and involve yourself with some give and take with other members.
When frustrated or if you have a successful moment in your journey you can share it here if you wish and receive support from others and offer support to others. You might even find that you will make some new friends here. 

Please come in and get involved at your own pace.  Be sure to look at the Links that I posted below, there is information about the site that will help you navigate around and best utilize the features here.
Again, Welcome.
Danielle

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[Jessica]

Hi Nikkimn 🙋‍♀️ Welcome to Susan's Place!  I'm Jessica.
I think most people are in the middle of starting to understand that there are more and more trans folk that are willing to live life as who they are.  We aren't common enough to not be a novelty, but common enough for them to be aware.  They may be confused, scared, mad (for what ever) or even curious.  Often when people are uncomfortable or confused they avoid the situation, they don't know what to do.  Society is slowly learning how to react, mostly (in my experience) in a positive way.

[Nikkimn]

Jessica, I'm probably just bursting with emoticons right now from the estrodial. It just sucks going from being in the drivers seat to watching my wife do all the talking and everyone embarrassed by my presence. I mostly have positive reactions from people just a hard adjustment right now. I want to express myself but I'm afraid I'll always be under a magnifying glass.

[Donna]

Don't get down on yourself. I find if peeps aren't sure about gender they will usually not use a sir or ma'am. Other times it's the wrong gendering. It can be frustrating but it's not the end of the world imho. Not being talked to is annoying for sure being confronted is something I believe we all want to avoid so wishing for it may not be good. Myself I think if I can get out and have a good day without watching for what peeps are doing or thinking or saying is fitting in and being accepted.  I move along everyday like its no different than last month or the month before etc. I am 3 weeks into living fem fulltime and getting a
Compliment or being properly gendered is a warm feeling that I would rather wait for and get than spend time expecting it or the worse.
Your going to have negative days but don't make everyday one of those by expecting a responce. Make every day a good day and then deal with the negatives as they come along. I haven't lost a single friend yet, I've gained so many new ones and all my friends and acquaintances have been more than enthusiastic for me as they have never seen me happier.

[cliffyman1953]

I'm sitting in the dark home and alone right now wondering if this is how others feel when people treat them like they don't exist. I just had an evening out at a restaurant and was never greeted, never talked to and people avoided me like I wasn't even there. I think I'd have preferred being confronted for being trans rather than the passive aggressive treatment I received.

Thoughts running through my head right now are is this worth it? Will I always be treated like a sub-human? Will anyone want to be my friend ever again?

Struggling right now.. Only six weeks on HRT and feeling very alone and rejected.

Hello sorry to hear of your rejection by people i have to be honest i am a male and never felt that issue but i know when i am down i grit my teeth and get back in there . The more you hide away the only person you are hurting is your self open up the house put on some rockin roll dance sing be you sweet . I hope i help if you needbto chat ill be here
Cliffy

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[Jessica]

Jessica, I'm probably just bursting with emoticons right now from the estrodial.

In the beginning, my emotions were all over the place, and still takes a hit occasionally due to the medications.  Take one day at a time and you will find your balance as you get used to it.