Question regarding final places to "come out" to

[LaRell]

Oh yeah, and I do need to get a new drivers license with my new address (a year old) on it, and am contemplating changing my name as well, so maybe I can just do it all at once.

[Cassi]

I checked out your You Tube page
Thumbs Up!!!!!

[ToriJo]

Definitely, do the driver's license!  Do your gender designation change if you are allowed in your state, too.  It is really affirming to see a picture that looks like me and a name that looks like me (and, I'm fortunate enough to be somewhere where I am also affirmed by seeing an affirming gender designation).

As for flying, I will be flying with a beard (for electrology) in a bit, and probably will dress more androgynous. I'm not looking forward to dealing with TSA on that - dealing with male ID and womanish looks was easy. But I'm not looking forward to the opposite - not only will I be feeling horrible for who I am, but I just want to be ignored when I'm pretending to be a dude.

[LaRell]

Definitely, do the driver's license!  Do your gender designation change if you are allowed in your state, too.  It is really affirming to see a picture that looks like me and a name that looks like me (and, I'm fortunate enough to be somewhere where I am also affirmed by seeing an affirming gender designation).

As for flying, I will be flying with a beard (for electrology) in a bit, and probably will dress more androgynous. I'm not looking forward to dealing with TSA on that - dealing with male ID and womanish looks was easy. But I'm not looking forward to the opposite - not only will I be feeling horrible for who I am, but I just want to be ignored when I'm pretending to be a dude.

  Oh yes, I know that feeling!  I hate hate hate having to go out in guy mode now.  So much that I guess psychologically, I welcome the possible confrontations in girl mode, because I would much rather just get to feel myself leading up to the potential confrontation and afterwards, and recognize it as just part of doing this whole thing.  But yeah, it is never fun especially if you are not super comfortable yet going out in girl mode, every little interaction can become an annoyance.  You find yourself getting way more annoyed than usual if you spill something at a restraraunt, because now, you feel like people will judge you harsher because of who you are.  Whereas when you were just some "guy", you would just brush it off as something spilled.    There for a while......my wife and I would stop for coffee or something.  And I was very new to going out in public, and we would pull up to the coffee shop, and my wife would ask "Would you just go in and get it for us?"  And immediately I would have a mini panic attack, because I was still at the stage of feeling the need of having her support and being there with me.  So I'd freak out a bit, and she could tell, so eventually she would either go with me, or would just say she was going herself.  After a while, I realized this was NOT good.  I could not live this way, always having to have my comfort blanket (my wife) if I wanted to have any kind of normal function in life.  So I realized real quick that I was just going to have to get over that, and practice going out by myself so I could get used to it, and realize the world is not coming to an end.  And that has been hugely key in my personal confidence.  l still struggle some with going into certain places as anyone who watches my YouTube video will hear me talk about. ha ha  Everyone is at different places in life, and all of us are going through our own journey at our own pace.  Mine feels a little accelerated, but that's what I feel ready for I guess.  Whereas some feel the need to be on HRT much longer before doing the things I'm doing. ha ha

[LaRell]

I checked out your You Tube page
Thumbs Up!!!!!

Well awesome!  Thanks! I will be posting other update videos and videos talking about my personal experiences to there now and then. 

[LaRell]

Oh yes, and as for a new drivers license and name.......Luckily I happen to live in one of the easier states for that!  You can have your gender marker changed without surgery here in Colorado.  To change my name, I have to petition the court, and submit a notice of name change to a newspaper three times within 21 days, which is probably the most involved part.  Then once that happens and I have the name change order from the court, I can take that first to the social security office to get a new social security card, then I can go to the DMV and get a new drivers license.  I also have a ham radio license and commercial pilots license that I need to change as well.   It would be so much easier to just not change my name.......but even though it is a fairly gender neutral name, it just bothers me to hear it now.  And yes, going to a bar or someplace and having to pull my very manly drivers license out and show it, is not cool at all!!!

[LaRell]

Okay Danielle:-)  I can't help sharing these pictures as well.  I just got them back from some of the photographers that photographed me last week.  There were four different photographers that night that I went to at this group photography event, and I got back some pictures from three of them so far.  Really looking forward to getting the ones back from the one photographer though, because there were a lot more of me in the white and black dress, and I'm curious to see how those ones turned out.  But this is like truly a spiritual experience for me.  Ha ha.  Talk about affirming good feelings to see myself like this, after years and years of feeling so wrong, and wanting to just get to be myself, but truly feeling like it was never going to happen.  Getting to experience something like this, and seeing real results.  And even if the HRT has not done a whole lot yet to feminize me, I have done so much personal work with my own emotions and confidence to where I myself, truly see a woman in these pictures.  Not a man trying to look like a woman.  And THAT is amazing, and one of the most important parts of gaining true freedom and happiness.   

 

 
 

 
 
 
 
 

[Northern Star Girl]

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Okay Danielle:-)  I can't help sharing these pictures as well.  I just got them back from some of the photographers that photographed me last week.  There were four different photographers that night that I went to at this group photography event, and I got back some pictures from three of them so far.  Really looking forward to getting the ones back from the one photographer though, because there were a lot more of me in the white and black dress, and I'm curious to see how those ones turned out.  But this is like truly a spiritual experience for me.  Ha ha.  Talk about affirming good feelings to see myself like this, after years and years of feeling so wrong, and wanting to just get to be myself, but truly feeling like it was never going to happen.  Getting to experience something like this, and seeing real results.  And even if the HRT has not done a whole lot yet to feminize me, I have done so much personal work with my own emotions and confidence to where I myself, truly see a woman in these pictures.  Not a man trying to look like a woman.  And THAT is amazing, and one of the most important parts of gaining true freedom and happiness.   

 
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OK now LaRell:  You have done it now.... all of your pictures are to die for...  I love the different poses and the different outfits.  Your hard work and determination have paid off for you, big time.
YOU look absolutely beautiful and all-woman in every picture.

Thanks for making us all  squee with joy and be very happy for you... 
Again, thank you for posting these terrific and beautiful pictures of yourself.

Note:  The pics of you in the Black and White halter top dress look very, very nice on you... good dress choice.
Danielle

[Allison S]

I only see a woman in these pictures too! Lovely! Your outfits are cute nice picks!

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[KathyLauren]

Wow, LaRell, you look amazingly gorgeous in those photos!

[Northern Star Girl]

Wow, LaRell, you look amazingly gorgeous in those photos!

I was planning to ask LaRell if I could borrow her camera that took those pictures.....   I would like to have my pictures taken with that camera for sure!!!!
Danielle

[LaRell]

I was planning to ask LaRell if I could borrow her camera that took those pictures.....   I would like to have my pictures taken with that camera for sure!!!!
Danielle

Ha ha Danielle!  I think you are super cute regardless of the camera :-)