Concerned: When I'm Asleep I Dream as Male

[Breeze 57]

This is probably stupid, but I just want to see if anyone else experiences this.  I know dreams don't really mean anything, but I've noticed when I am in a dream, I am usually male.  Note:  I am MtF, but I have not socially transitioned and have no plans to do so at the moment.  Once in a blue moon, I'll have a dream where maybe I'm in a dress and I fear being found out by others in the dream.  Usually though, whatever is happening in the dream, I'm a guy.

I know it shouldn't, but this bothers me.  Does this ever change?  I've been on HRT for just 2 months, so no real physical changes.

[Denise]

Your dreams are a random collection of you conscience thoughts.  You've probably had a few more male experiences than female ones.

I've been full time for 13 months and two weeks ago I had the first dream as Denise.  I don't think you should think into it.

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[Breeze 57]

Thanks so much for your response.  Makes me feel a lot better.  Just my insecurities and doubts surfacing.

[Northern Star Girl]

This is probably stupid, but I just want to see if anyone else experiences this.  I know dreams don't really mean anything, but I've noticed when I am in a dream, I am usually male.  Note:  I am MtF, but I have not socially transitioned and have no plans to do so at the moment.  Once in a blue moon, I'll have a dream where maybe I'm in a dress and I fear being found out by others in the dream.  Usually though, whatever is happening in the dream, I'm a guy.

I know it shouldn't, but this bothers me.  Does this ever change?  I've been on HRT for just 2 months, so no real physical changes.

@ Breeze: I have been on HRT for 3+ years and have been full time for over 1 1/2 years and my own personal experience is that I dream both ways, sometimes as a male and more often as a female.  When I dream as a female I always appear as my female self in my dream.
Hugs, Danielle

[sarah1972]

It is a gradual change. I am 15 months into HRT and 9 month I to full time and would say that it is a 60/40 ratio(60 being female in dreams). But it did start with one or two and then became a more regular thing.

What I find interesting is that my dreams do reflect the timing of changes. The more I dream into the fire the more female the dreams become while dreams looking backwards usually show me as male.

Dreams are funny and I do notice a lot more since I started transitioning, even finally processing some very old scars...

[blackcat]

I'm in the process of coming to terms with realizing I am trans (AFAB, realized in my 30s). This past week has been an emotional rollercoaster, and every single night I dreamed I was a man. And I never, ever, ever dreamed I was a man before.

But this has been all that's on my mind, so it's reasonable to assume my brain continues to chew on this while I'm sleeping. FWIW, I don't think I can transition, so the emotions associated are flooding me 24/7.

I wish I could control my dreams 

Sometimes dreams just echo the madness of the day. When I used to waitress, I would have those horrendous, "OMG, someone just gave me a table of twenty little kids and my section is already full!" kinds of dreams. So if you're spending a significant amount of time presenting as male, it makes sense that echoes of your daily life would bleed into the subconscious, no great prophecies attached.

I think dreams are like fortune cookies. Every now and then I'll save one and tape it to my computer screen. Most of the time, it's better to just eat the cookie.

[FinallyMichelle]

It seems to me that most of my dreams are a reflection of how I view myself. Some of them are a specific time in my life but that is very, very rare. The time specific dreams have been consistently my last remaining male dreams, even those are changing to female which is super confusing for me in my dream and I feel a sense of things not being as they should. I cannot pinpoint why until I wake up.

In my late thirties I started to have female dreams. I have had them my entire life but maybe one a year or every other year. It seriously weirded me out and made me ache at the same time. Those dreams were not too frequent but at least one per month.

Like you I worried that I wasn't dreaming female all of the time when I first started hormones. It was not long after going full time that they began to change. Even then full female dreams were rare. The dreams I had were of a male to female trans girl, with all of the anxiety of my waking life. Can people tell and then relief if they could not.

I got beat up bad at around 6 months full time. Those were the only dreams I had for a long time, no gender just pain and terror. Then one day they ended, poof! and my dreams were a mix of full female mixed with trans female with the very rare male dream.

Now at 3 1/2 years on hormones and 3 years full time. I have no trans female dreams and almost no male dreams they are almost all female. That is why I think that who we are in dreams reflect on how we see ourselves.

Transition is a process right? To me it almost feels that gradual is inherent in the word.

[Northern Star Girl]

@ FinallyMichelle:
Thank you for posting your reply below.  I agree with much of what you wrote about and have experienced many of the same things.... (except for being beat up... I am sorry that happened to you)
It may be a coincidence but we both have been on HRT for over 3 years and been full time for a long time, perhaps that has something to do with our dreams that are a majority of female dreams.
Again, thanks for posting.
Hugs,
Danielle

[Allison S]

Dreams spook me out honestly. I don't know why I never saw myself in any of them my entire life (from what I remember) until about a month ago.. I always have vivid dreams, but again never saw myself until just recently...

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[Northern Star Girl]

Dreams spook me out honestly. I don't know why I never saw myself in any of them my entire life (from what I remember) until about a month ago.. I always have vivid dreams, but again never saw myself until just recently...

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@ Allison:
Did you see yourself in your dreams as a Female or as a Male?
Danielle

[Allison S]

@ Allison:
Did you see yourself in your dreams as a Female or as a Male?
Danielle

I never did at all until a month ago I saw myself as a female for the first time

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[PollyQMcLovely]

I sleep about 25 hours every day and have been able to lucid dream for a long time. I can manually switch my physical gender in dreams at will but the thrill of dreaming lucidly left me a long time ago and I rarely bother anymore.
Nowadays I'll have the occasional non lucid dreams dealing with dysphoria that usually involve trying on women's clothes or becoming frustrated that I'm not already wearing them or going out dressed in something nice but demoralized by the sense of being surrounded by the disapproving eyes of strangers.

I never have had any issues with my internal alignment though, I am just whatever I am and I'm cool with that so I don't have OP's specific issue. However I think it's safe to say it's not worth worrying about. I agree with previous posts on how dreams shouldn't be taken to have any meaningful spiritual interpretation. Perhaps over time this issue will fade and you'll just be comfortable with yourself and not feel the need to be identified by societal definitions of gender.

[kk]

My dreams go back and forth between male and female, but it's always me.  The more masculine I get and the more comfortable I get with being FtM, the more male my dreams are.

[kanad3]

Most of my dreams are genderless but I have some female and some male ones. A lot of the time it is just me being scared of being outed for something or being naked and wondering wtf will they think

[amberwaves]

On the rare occasions I remember my dreams and I happen to be in the I am still male.  I am just shy of two years on hormones and have been fine time for a good while.  There have been a few instances where I was trans-something or other but they were very specific to my insecurities regarding transition. 

I try not to dwell on dreams.  In my waking life I honestly don't think of myself in gendered tells at all unless circumstance necessitates prong a gender to the thought.  I am me, plain and simple.  Gender only really factors in when considering how others view me and it's still sometimes a surprise to realize, "oh yeah, they see a woman now."

[CarlyMcx]

In most  of my dreams since I started hormones I am trans female.  But last night I had a dream that I was homeless in a dystopian future city and I was a feminine androgynous male.

I think dreams like that are more a reflection of my fears than any reflection of who I am.

[xAmyX]

Interesting. I've had the complete opposite experience. I've been dreaming with myself as female LONG before I began taking feminizing hormones. Since childhood! How could I ever forget them? I could write a book on all the dreams I had with me as a girl going back as far as I can remember. They were very happy moments for me, and waking up brought a sense of sadness each time that has now been alleviated. Perhaps with more experience as your new and improving self will seethe new beginnings on your sleep provoked trajectories experienced when entering those wonderful, theta states.