I have only been out for two months, and already everything feels normal again. I am still a bit apprehensive when I go somewhere new, but it is all in my mind. I have never had a bad reaction from anyone, whether an old friend or a new one. Probably the lowest point was when I told my wife of over 30 years, she was devastated. We did not speak about it for months. I finally made an appointment with a therapist for both of us, and after several sessions my wife seemed to get better. Last weekend we met Tia Anne (another member of Susan's) and her wife Debi. At one point Tia asked me if I would ever go back to who I was, and I answered 'no'. She then asked my wife if she would want me to go back, and my wife also said 'no'. We still have some work to do, but our life together is now better that it had been in a long time.
I still don't feel like a woman when I wake up in the morning, it just feels like any other morning. It does not seem to kick in until I get dressed and put on makeup. When I go shopping it is not for women's clothing, it is for my clothing. I am also comfortable discussing my transition with friends who ask. I still have a lot to learn, just yesterday I did my nails for the first time ever. I don't feel like I am wearing a costume anymore, I am wearing my clothes. I am comfortable now, and happy.