Hey all,
So yesterday I had the re talk with my mom about being trans and it went so much better then I possibly thought it could have. I did try telling her before but my circumstances were massively different. But now it seems like she's actually starting to believe me.
So, it all started when I was at work and since I work in a factory at a machine by myself I'm often left tommy own thoughts. It was a particularly bad night for thinking and in the end hiding it was getting far to stressful and making me hate myself more and more so in the end I figured what happens happens. So in text my mom and after a while of talking she admitted that it would be easier for her to do it face to face.
Comes next morning and my mom asks if I want to talk about it yet and because of nerves I made an excuse but after she asked me a second time something inside just said "just get on with it" so we had a chat.
Essentially she said she will always love me and will never hate me or abandon me bit she does think I'm slightly confused about how far I want to take it. She does fully believe that I am either a drag queen or a cross dresser but every time a full transition was mentioned she kept brining up how painful some of the surgeries I want will be (context here my pain levels are extremely low and I hate the idea of a needle sticking in me because of the pain).
She knows that I eventually plan on telling my dad (see a previous post for more on this) and agrees it would be best for me to get to know him first rather then just come straight put with it. She also believes that me going to another country for 12 months will help massively in me deciding which path I want to take, but I already know that path anyway.
So all in all baby steps are being taken but progress is being made, and I'm just so so happy that the person I was most scared of losing has told me I'd never lose her.
Much love xox
