"Hello, God, this is Ann ..."
About two years ago, when I first started with my gender therapist, she asked me if I wanted to learn female mannerisms. I told her No, because I believed my femininity would find its natural expression, given time, and I wanted nothing artificial or contrived about my presentation to the world.
It's been nearly two years since I came out to myself, and it's happening. The shy girl is emerging into the light, and it's glorious! I don't want to catalog specifics; suffice to say, it's real, it's happening and it's wonderful.
One thing more ... and I'd really like to hear from anyone else who has had this experience.
A day or two ago, it suddenly struck me as astonishing that other people don't perceive me as a woman. I don't pass; but it doesn't matter. It's so obvious to me that the fact that it isn't to other people seemed ridiculous to me.
I know this sounds weird. I understand, intellectually, why people don't see me as a woman. But, emotionally, it's perplexing. How can they not see? 🙂
