I've been raped as well. At age 17 before I came out as trans, I met a guy online whom I wanted to be friends with. We chatted online and then talked on the phone for several months before we decided to meet in person. We met at a big train station in the city he lived in, and he suggested we'd go to his place. I remember I thought "if I go with him, he might rape me" before I said yes and went with him. So yeah, that's what he did, on Valentine's Day 2007. I did say no repeatedly and tried push him away and clarify I didn't want to, until I got to a point where I froze up and gave up. I broke contact with him a few days later when he sent me a text message. I don't think he fully understood he did something wrong. I never reported it. Technically he took my virginity.
I was also molested as a kid when I was 9, by two of my bullies (a boy and a girl) who were of my age, at a secluded area of the school yard. Somehow that led to me molesting another kid in turn a month or so later, which I've felt a lot of remorse over but I had no idea I did something wrong or even what I was doing at the time.
I didn't tell anyone about either of those two childhood events and that trauma led me to develope some form of dissociative identity disorder as well, meaning my mind split into two distinct personalities so I've been me and an alter ever since. That alter who's always been very abusive then also raped me when I was 22, in kind of a 'switch' as she took control over my body while I remained conscious.
I'm still struggling to process the stuff that happened in my childhood, but the other stuff I'm handling rather well nowadays. I've made peace with my alter and she's been supportive instead of abusive for the past year or so now. Although I'm pretty sure these experiences are a strong reason as to why I've become somewhat of a sex addict as an adult. Like I'm constantly trying to fill a void, both literally and figuratively, but it's never enough and I know I engage in unnecessarily risky behaviour again and again, with no regards to my health, whether physically or mentally.