Hello Danielle
Thank you sweetheart for bringing this up again.
It seems to be that Utopias has been created, mission accomplished.
You know how it is in a small town I'm pretty sure that most know about me but nothing has really changed.
It's still a lot of waves and smiling when driving by, or in the one General Store we have here that's sort of a gathering point.
I'm still pinching myself because it's hard to believe being here as I always dreamed of and transitioning here just makes all the pieces of the jigsaw puzzle of my life come together.
It's almost going a little too well far beyond any expectations I originally had. I seem to be kind of a pet project between about a half a dozen real girlfriends that I've always known and where my wife's friends but lately we've been hanging around a lot together, the number of girlfriends has higher expectations of me than I do for the time. But we've been doing doing a lot of swimming and canoeing, kayaking taking in the last warm spell probably of the summer, but you know how it is with the weather but there must be something the global warming because even within the time I've been here it's really been a lot warmer and a shorter winter then when I first moved here.
Everyone I came out too I've had a very positive response from them and they almost seem a little more friendly now than before even though it was an extremely friendly environment.
Knock on wood I really haven't had a bad day like I'm used to, if l was on a graph it would be like a hand saw going up on a 45 degree angle, from extremely good days to just very good days but I also know this assent is unsustainable.
I did have a tremendous Advantage though having established a lot of friends in the 25 years we've been here.
Where are you Danielle, are simply fierce starting up a new life by yourself in a small Alaskan town with no one knowing your past sounds like a fairytale dream come true.
To tell you the truth I haven't been out here as much because of this core of girl friends that we've been engaging a lot more in, plus time spent cutting trees down for firewood.
I would imagine that most of us MTF,s felt more comfortable hanging with the girls instead of the guy stuff.
And that's exactly what most of my friends have noticed through the years but now they understand and see me clearly much more healthy than they ever known and this is what really made it work for me here.
Right now I'm just at home with the wife but we've had a really good evening and I feel like I'm getting more waves of femininity then I was with the initial burst of euphoria.
Me and the wife are still up playing around with curling each other's hair and it's just wonderful and becoming harder and harder to come back down which I never really do because as I mentioned before most men and women in this little town dress the same but I noticed when I go into Marquette it's quite different seeing women in makeup and heels is really nothing I've seen in my town other than pulling a young pretty girl out of the ditch in a blizzard in about twenty five below temperature. She was from Chicago just visiting the couple people that live at the end of my Dead End Road and her car was in the ditch and she was dressed in heels, nylons little skirt nice blouse with a thin jacket but that's it I don't even know if she would have survived making it to my house if she walked, but we don't get much traffic on the dead end Road especially in the winter.
This threads not going to be on going because it's already Utopia created and now I get to live the rest of my life up in it.
It's almost impossible to contain because things have been going so well especially with my sleeping it's almost unbelievable and I'm sure it's only going to get better. Now that I'm able to get continuous sleep every night it's really gave me the incentive to live a healthier life.
I don't believe I could have pulled this off in the big city. I live my first 25 years in the suburbs of Detroit so I pretty much know what that environment is about but I feel up here in God's country it's another world one just waiting for me.
It's really very interesting for me because old hobbies and interests seem to be coming back and my general quality of life has massively approved.
I'm almost certain Danielle if it wasn't for you I never would have got through my initial teething phase coming back to civilization after I did my very best to ignore it. You know how it is dear some people say people move up north to get their heads together but I prefer to think of it as Unique Individuals living their dreams as reality.
Thanks anyone who followed this thread just know there is a place where one person can make a difference resulting in them seeing us in a better light and there's nothing really wrong with us here we are and we're not crazy.
I might be adding a few things to this thread in the future but I think it's time to start another one because this ones about done, and I honestly I've seen only good in people.
My best wishes to everyone for a happier, healthier life.
love Tatiana
