Hello! I have a few updates from this week!
Tuesday: I went to the park for a walk. I know this doesn't sound special but I love this park and it was my first time going as Maddie! Last year I was there almost every day from April to November, that place became really special to me. I was there a handful of times this year but dressed as a male. I went with a friend on Tuesday and the last time I was there was before that was the day I came out on facebook, and I was there with the same person. I went back again today but I was by myself! I'm glad that I'm starting to get out again, I haven't been too active lately because my back has been acting up. After the walk I met up with another friend at a new Mexican restaurant. It was nice to catch up with her, but I did experience my first sign of negativity from someone for being trans. It wasn't too bad, just kinda rude. I ordered a rainbow margarita and the waitress just looked at me and said "rainbow? ha!"
Wednesday: I went out for dinner with my mom and older sister. My younger sister was supposed to come but couldn't. My mom kept dead naming me and misgendering me all night, it got pretty irritating. Even the waitress would come out to the table and address us all as "ladies" but my mom still addressed me as a male, one time she even did it in front of the waitress, which was embarrassing. I let it go that night, but next time I'm going to say something and tell her that if she doesn't at least try to get it right then I'm not going to have dinner with her anymore. I called my dad later that night about father's day plans, my sister and I wanted to make dinner for him. He said that his wife's aunt and uncle were in town and he asked if they could come. I told him that I wasn't planning on being there as a male, to which he replied "oh, you weren't?" I didn't wanna say they can't come, I just wanted to give him a heads up, but I guess he doesn't wanna deal with telling them because he just told me that he'd tell them they can't come. awkward.
Thursday: I GOT A KITTY!!!!! I've been wanting one for a while now, especially since my depression got the best of me a couple weeks ago, I was hoping a cat might cheer me up. Well on Sunday my friend sent me a text saying that she might have a present for me, and then she sent me a pic of the little guy. Last saturday he just showed up on her back porch and then he stuck around. There's a few feral cats in the neighborhood that she leaves food out for, so I guess that attracted him, but instead of returning to the wild he tried to make her porch his new home. She already has one indoor cat plus 2 dogs, so she couldn't take him in, even though she started getting attached to him. on monday she put him up on a lost and found pets page on facebook, and she said that I could come get him on thursday if no one claimed him by then. Well no one claimed him so yesterday morning I went and bought some supplies and then I went and picked him up! He's so cute and I'm really in love with him! He hasn't misbehaved at all yet and he seems appreciative of his new home, he usually sticks right by my side! The only bad thing was last night. I left my bedroom door open so he could come in and out, and then around 3am I woke up to him meowing a lot. I talked to him a little bit and he came in and jumped up on the bed and started rubbing up against me and he was being quite talkative. He settled down by 4am and I slept until about 630. I woke up and wondered if he was in the room or not. then I looked to my left and he was sleeping right next to me lol. I've taken a lot of pictures so far but I'm not going to post any yet, I want to wait a few more days to see if anyone ends up claiming him before I officially consider him mine. I think he was probably left behind by a college student, school got out a few weeks ago and the student's parents probably wouldn't let them bring him home. He's young but not super young, maybe about a year or so, and he hasn't been neutered yet either, I'm going to have to get that done soon. I'm naming him Smithers
Today: I had a session with my therapist today. I brought up my depression from a couple weeks ago and I said that it runs in my family and that I know it will be back even though I feel fine most of the time. She didn't even ask me what set it off, which I thought it was a little weird, she just said that my primary care doctor (the one that gives me hormones) can prescribe me some anti-depressants, so I can talk to him about it. After my session I went and did some errands... the girl who rang me out at the grocery store complimented me on my necklace and the girl at the pharmacy complimented my top when I went to pick up my hormones, yay!
I'm excited for tomorrow, my best friend is getting married! I'm starting to get nervous, 2 months ago my one friend told me she would do my makeup, she even put it in the calendar on her phone. Now this person isn't answering my texts. ugh. Oh well. I'm sure I'll get some good pics tomorrow, I'll post em when I can!
