Oh, I thought you folks would help, and you did. I read and read and read, and the points of view here are all over - so a few were in pretty close alignment with what I've been feeling.
I've wanted to dress as a woman, and a slutty one at that, since I was about fifteen. No dysphoria when I am feeling male, but euphoria when I am feeling female and can represent, so I have been sitting on this rather poky, sharp fence about transitioning.
Then someone's comment about Felix Conrad induced me to spend the princely sum of €12 on four books, and there I found out about the crossdreamer. That is revelatory and I think I get it, though it's not a 100% fit since I still love men, too, and I still love it even more when a suave man takes me out to dinner, then home for the night.
So my provisional answer (damn, changes -happen-) is I am not going to transition, though if the Boob Fairy promised me a pair of 38Cs and no fair changing back I would say "yes, please, bring them on". -X.
