As a child from about age 4 or 5 I used to dream about how good it would be to be a girl. I often cross dressed when parents were around or not. I went to yoga with mum and people remarked is that a boy or a girl(I loved it). I had blonde shoulder length hair. Dysphoria never bothered me as a child. When age 13 hit and some of my friends were becoming young women I felt disappointed and left behind, I really envied them. The dream was over and it was time to man up so I did. I dated girls. I had intimate relationships. I had trouble cultivating the dynamic women are attracted to. Always ended up their friend I could never do the benevolent dictator some guys could.
I also worked men's jobs- shipbuilding, commercial diver, engineer. I nearly married one sweet woman who asked me "You would like to be a woman wouldn't you" I said yes(she knew me well). As the years rolled by a met a lovely woman, had kids , built equity. Enjoyed the white picket fence life until the inevitable dysphoria came home to roost when I was 46 years old. I started to dress for the first time since school. The angst, unease, dissatisfaction and distraction drove me to see a psychiatrist and a psychologist. I had discovered late onset gender dysphoria. To keep functioning I spoke to friends and family and got on HRT.
With good diet, exercise, HRT and some feminine expression I can get by so far. Recently joined Susan's and looking forward to interacting and making friends.
Big Hi and hug to you all![emoji178]
Kirsten
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