Cross dressing, at least to me, initially was an itch that at a very young age I found the urge to scratch irresistible. where it came from I'm not sure, although I do remember being envious of girls, and enjoyed playing their games with them, and by myself. i have memories of using my Mother's lipstick, and wearing my sister's clothes, including her underwear. These early cross dressing forays were I think innocent, and done quite openly. Once puberty hit my dressing habits became more surreptitious, were no longer innocent , and were not done openly. These habits have never entirely gone away, rather, over the many years, have grown stronger, and have led to thoughts of transitioning, as well as undergoing periodic HRT treatments to become more feminine. No doubt cross dressing is on a spectrum, but it seems to me, the desire to be, at least to some extent, more womanly, and for most more feminine, is part of every dresser's makeup.
