Hello, April! It's a pleasure to make your acquaintance!
Susans is a wonderful resource, as I'm sure you know. Most of us have gone or are going through exactly what you describe, sometimes it's just not directly spoken until it pops up in another discussion thread/topic.
While I haven't built a 'good' life before transitioning, it was definitely stable and somewhat rewarding. Here's the thing about losing or gaining things that I've noticed. What you care about can change over time, April might want something vastly different than the old you, but that doesn't mean it will be less-fulfilling, even if it's something considered of lesser value to society or the majority.
When you get to be your honest, true self, there's no other feeling like it after being trapped(and I certainly felt trapped, too) Basically everything in life improves, as your mood or outlook improves, because your self-image improves.
It is kinda scary letting go of things you had in the past(Im not even on HRT yet, but very much anxious and excited for it) but life can certainly change, and every single day is an opportunity to make it better you just gotta find and commit to it.
My wife describes transitioning like a relay race for me. The old me was running with the baton, not I'm in the process of passing the baton to Eryn, and someday, it will be just Eryn who is running.
Anywho, hope to see ya around the forum and don't hesitate to DM me if ya wanna chat! I'm still fairly new to transitioning, but I might be able to offer some advice.
Have a wonderful life, hun!
Much love,
Eryn
