How many of you started as binary trans and then realized you were nonbinary?

[Virginia]

at PTWC, they had a few sessions for DID (I don't remember what term they used.)  One was open and one was closed (i.e., for multiples only.)

Thank you for sharing this! It is a GREAT releif to me to  know DID is being explored in important transgender forums like the Philadelphia Trans-Wellness Conference.

[Satinjoy]

At the risk of being in the wrong thread, I'm more someone who is in some ways binary and in some ways non-binary.

My presentation is pretty binary femme.  I even want SRS (whenever I manage to lose 70 lbs. so the surgeon will approve me.)  I find masculinity off-putting, even triggering.

But I've never felt like I'm a woman -- or a man -- inside.  I don't identify with gender at all.  In fact, this is why I for a long time resisted thinking of myself as trans: I'd heard the "woman trapped in a man's body" thing and since I didn't feel that at all, I was sure I wasn't trans.  I just assumed that I was just really, really messed up.  (Well, that's actually true. )

For me, my goal has never to "be a woman," it's to transition to being myself.  I spent most of my life trying to be whatever the heck I was told I had to be, and doing a miserable job of it and hating it.  Now all I want to do is to live in a way that makes my few remaining years as comfortable as possible.

I've never felt it necessary to "present" as non-binary, I just wear whatever makes me feel good when I look at myself in the mirror.  And since I'm solidly gynophilic, what makes me feel good is looking like a woman.  But there's a lot of stuff that women (cis, but especially trans) are expected to do to "be women" that I just can't be
So: am I a "real" enby or not?

Yup.

Enby is a wide umbrella, pretty inclusive.

[Drexy/Drex]

I wasn't  sure  what I was I just knew I wasn't a complete  male... For decades I was fascinated with the hermaphrodite Condition that's the way I wished I could  be... It was when I found these forums that I read the Wiki about the rainbow  spectrum and  non binary  to this day it's what fits.. I always believed in a third sex and that I was that....

[JoanneB]

I say I am NB by default

De fault that the circumstances of my life coupled with it's various and sundry conflicting needs and wants say that the NB is maybe less painful then taking that boat ride up de nile.