Yesterday I made a crazy trip out to Scottsdale to meet with Dr Ley, Tobi Meltzers partner about BA and GRS. I have met with a few others but for whatever reason I have gravitated towards Meltzer/Ley for the last year. Anyways, left my house near Philadelphia around 3am and got back around 1am, I am known for crazy flight plans. 18 hours in transit.
Anyways, after finally making it to the office - my appointment was at 10.45 and I got there at 10:44, nothing like cutting it close. Waited about 40 minutes because they were running a bit behind, and then my appointment.
I was surprised at my reaction. Normally I am outgoing and pretty talkative (thank you, ms Estrogen), and full of well reasoned questions. I got really nervous which I did not expect, and my brain went to mush. What the heck, Jill?
The assistant answered my litany of questions that did not necessarily follow any linear flow of logic. Spaghetti brain is a real thing and don't let anyone tell you otherwise. When Dr. Ley walked in, she politely told me to shut up and let her get through her spiel. I asked more questions, mostly around complications and her personal complication rate. She was very open sharing her metrics, which was a big deal to me. I work well when I can internally have a solid set of expectations. If expectations are poorly set, I create my own and spin when they aren't met. Just my personality.
I met with Paxton, her scheduler, again (whom I have been driving nuts for a year now) and we got a date on the books. As it stands, January, 10 2019 is a big day in the life of Jill. I may need to move it around a bit to work around work and coordinating the kids with my ex, but it is so exciting to have a mark in time.
I got really emotional from joy and sadness at the same time. I was alone and that was difficult because I was dealing with my own emotions, hesitations and uncertainties meanwhile trying to absorb a life changing conversation. I had tried to bring a friend but it just did not work out with work schedules and whatnot.
Wow, can't believe I'm at the point where I have a scheduled date for something I have been dreaming, yearning for, and needing for nearly forty years. I am jumping out of my skin with excitement! Finally.
