Stephee I strongly recommend starting your own thread, if for no other reason then to just vent. Look how ridiculously long my selfish thread has become. Thank God everyone here is to warm, patient and willing to share otherwise both my therapist and numerous bartenders would be millionaires!
Kim and Moni thank you for your warm anniversary wishes. We had a nice evening. We have been married for 38 years and together for 43, hence my brutally long and painful battle with transitioning.
Yes, yes, yes I know Kim I have to talk with her but I am so afraid of that pain I will see in her eyes...I need that strength and conviction I keep talking about but that is easier said than done.
I keep looking for a way out...and there is none...sigh