Donica,
There is a period of time where being self conscious goes with the territory. It is not attached to you as an individual, more to the transition process itself. You must have faith that things will evolve for you. This is basic training, Trans 101, whatever you want to call it. The best thing to do is remind yourself that this will be okay. Positive thoughts are the best thing for crowding out the negativity. You know what you want Lady, don't waiver, go for happiness! It takes some work though. Early on, I got sort of a sense of power by staring back til people looked away. Then I used a smile which I decided I liked better. I kind of saw it as regaining power. I established control of the situation with the smile. Either they were going to look away, smile back, or essentially declare themselves to be two legged skunks. It is a good way to hold the head up high too. People will respond better to warm, friendly, confident people. If you aren't confident, fake it til you make it. Oh, I too have days even now after a few years where it is hard not to worry what others think.
A word about Laurie. She is a wonderful woman who came to visit me clear across the country when I had GCS. Unfortunately as she was leaving my room to go, my brother opened the door at the same time and smack, that's where the head injury happened. Ever since then Jeanette left and Laurie appeared. The trauma has had two effects. First she is unable to remember my name. Second, she has developed an intense jealously of my best friend Harvey. Of course, you have noticed her fondness for mentioning rabbits? It is now her obsession. Please humor the poor girl, she is capable of crazy thoughts. After all, what sane person obsesses over simply having a pooka?
Moni
@Laurie, there there, it will be okay, Honey!
