I Really need some help and I don't know where to start, so here is my story.
I have been battling the fact that I am Transgender Male to Female with my family ever since I was 13 I finally came out to them back in 2015 when I was 27 years old. I was diagnosed with Aspergers back in 2013 and it has been really hard for me I feel that I am transgender and have felt this way since I was 13 years old. when I came out to my family my parents did not like it. It was hard for them to understand that this is who I am and they wanted nothing to do with it. my dad told me I could not drive my truck anymore that it is a man's vehicle and that it is not a girl's vehicle. My mom told me she would not help me go shopping. At first I thought my sisters were accepting later I came to find out that they were not. this I really did not know what to do so I got scared that my parents would not want anything to do with me so I liked to them and said I am OK now I don't feel this way anymore but that was a lie I can't make this go away. After I lied to them I tried my best to accept being a guy but it did not work so I cam out to them again when the help of my Female therapist but it made things worse for me my mom said she did not want anything to with it and so did my dad. my dad is so against liberals as he was in the Army for 30 years he just retired last year.
My mom and dad told me that if this is who I am that I would have to leave, I then got scared again and did not know what to do. I then again lied to them and said that I don't feel this way anymore a couple of days later and my parents were not mad at me anymore. I keep lying to them just to keep them happy but I can't do this every time they get mad at me because I keep making them think that it is something else when it isn't. I am still having to hide the fact that I am Transgender from them and it is killing me on the inside. I hate going back and fourth with my parents about this but I also don't want them to kick me out if the house I really don't have the ability to live on my own as I get Disability for my Aspergers. I was also told by my Female therapist that I show signs of Bipolar Disorder. I just moved to Florida back in October and on Jan 7th I will be seeing someone for my Bipolar Disorder I get why I may have it as it is due to the fact that I keep going up and down with me feeling Transgender. I need help what should I do now since I am getting a new therapist for my Bipolar Disorder and maybe one for my Aspergers I was wondering what should I do about me being Transgender I just keep going back and forth with my parents every time they get mad at me and I don't want to lie to them just so they don't kick me out. I feel that I am 100 percent Transgender but I am stupid for lying to my parents every time they get mad at me because I keep punching them in the face making them think that I am Trans one minute but not the next. I am the only one who knows what I am but I don't know how to deal with it and get my parents to understand that this is never ever going to go away no matter how much they don't like it.
I really need help with this and just want to hear what others have to say about this I really don't know what to do and want to know what I should do if you were me in my shoes. Any advice would be nice I know this may sound stupid but I really don't know what to do.
