I don't know if I'm nb or not but I don't think I really fit into the gender binary. I'm afab and transitioned ftm but where I'm at now I'd prefer if my body neck down is female but I like the masculinity I got added to my face. I always had an androgynous face and when I took testosterone it got more masculine with a stronger, wider jaw and beard growth. I think my face looks more harmonic and together now, and that I can vary between if I want a beard or be shaven smooth.
I don't think I can "see myself" in the mirror though but that's because of my dissociative issues and not really because of my gender situation, although there is some overlap. Sometimes I feel disheartened when I think I see "clearly a man" in the mirror cause I feel like I am a woman. And also cause I think my face doesn't quite look like it belongs to my body. Kinda like someone put a Ken doll's head on a Barbie doll's body. But I also remind myself that me having masculine facial features doesn't make me not a woman, it just means I'm masculinised and also that there's nothing wrong with that, regardless of my gender. That I'm still beautiful and this is still and always has been my face, and that it's a face that I can love as it is.
I also have to be hard on myself to not let other people's expectations of me make me think I should change the way I look. Like I've often times had a hard time trying to explain to people why I want to keep my facial hair as a woman, because that didn't fit their view of what they thought a woman should want to look like. So that's a thing to keep in mind: people are gonna shove their opinions about your looks down your throat, esp if you get "uncommon" alterations.
I don't feel any wish to further alter my face in any way, or to transition further towards masculinity in any other capacity. But my point is I already did have my face altered (although hormonally, not surgically) and I'm satisfied with that, although on occasion I feel disconnected to it. Or at the very least I don't regret it at all and I embrace it as a positive change to my looks.
So I relate to only wanting to transition your face but not the rest of your body. In that sense I recognise myself but as a female-bodied person with a masculinised face instead.
Sometimes I wonder if I'm nb but my gender aligns with my body's sex cause I see myself as a woman. But because my body is now a mix of male and female and I like to keep it that way, I don't think I fit the binary. I have a strong masculine side to my female gender but I see it mostly as my slightly over-powered "animus".