Hi I am Jessica

[Jessica_K]

Hi,

My name is Jessica and I am 65 years old. Every since I was a child I thought there was something wrong with me. I was just going through life, doing all the things expected of me, but there was something missing. My grandson Tom came out just before his 18th birthday and it made me realise that perhaps I could have that inner happiness that comes from understanding my real gender.

I am less brave than Tom, but I guess I have a lot to lose if things go wrong so I have not yet come out, but I am doing things that I know what they mean and kind of laying the ground in an attempt to hint rather than blurt it out all in one go, just gradual changes.

I have started looking after my nails, I know its trivial but I love doing them, I have always had them long, but now they are nicely manicured and using a gloss strengthener to give them a lovely look without paint. Silly I know but it makes me very happy, and I have low testosterone that helps in other ways too

I have some clothes that I can wear in my office where I work alone and that is just wonderful to find the real me

Anyway, just saying Hi and a little introduction

Jessica

[Northern Star Girl]

@Jessica_K
Dear Jessica:
WOW... very happy news...   I am most pleased that you had decided to join the site.
Thank you for writing your first posting.... other members will be along to offer their thoughts and comments in response to your specific questions and concerns..

Thank you for posting your happy event and happy thoughts here on this thread. 

This is the right place for you to be to find out what others may have to say that may have been in your circumstances and with your questions and concerns.
    There are a lot of members here that will be able to identify with your situation as you continue to feel free to share it.

    Please allow me to warmly WELCOME you to Susan's Place. 
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[Jessica]

Hi Jessica, welcome to Susan's Place.  I'm Jessica too!
I see you have been greeted by our darling Northern Star*Girl @Alaskan Danielle.

It is tough to find an outlet to feel your real self.  I agree with you on your nails.  It is the single most important thing I've done to express myself.  There they are, reminding you all day...

And Jessica, please take care to visit the very helpful links Danielle gave you..  they can be handy in helping you to get the most from the site.

Hugs and smiles from a California girl, Jessica (Marie)

[Jessica_K]

Thanks Jessica and Danielle for a warm welcome and so quick. I just wanted to add that I am from the UK, near Hungerford if anyone knows where that is  as I missed that out in my first post

Love
Jessica

[V M]

Hi Jessica 

Welcome to Susan's Place    Glad to have you here, join on in the fun

Hugs

V M

[Lacy]

Welcome Jessica!
It's great to hear that you are exploring your true self!! Everyone has different circumstances, but through all the differences, it is amazing how things that seem trivial can bring such joy!

[Jessica_K]

Hi Lacy,

It is the little things. I have spent a lot of time changing names where I can legally, as I have not yet officially done so. Another big step to take soon. It makes me so happy when I log in and see my name.

I had a great experience at the bank a few days ago, they made be feel so welcome and treated me as ME. I opened a new account and although I could not use my name, legal bit, my debit card just has my old initial and MX so quite neutral. The bank knows me as Jessica and every other part of the account in in my name.

I cannot explain in words how this made me feel, even as I write this I feel emotional.

I have a few further steps to take before the big name change. Again maybe trivial, but I need to lose a lot of weight so that clothes look good on me, lost 21 Lbs so far Go Me...

Thanks for your kind words Lacy and all of you that is making me feel so welcome here and allowing me to get the confidence to write this

Love
Jessica