Don't know if I have it all figured out

[gender_bender]

Hi everyone!


I am Kwaku (that's the name I've chosen for now) and I am a senior in high school, so I do have quite a lot to learn. While I go to a boarding school New England (I am on financial aid), I live in Toronto.

I think I began suffering from gender dysphoria while I was going through puberty (puberty slapped me at a very young age), but I didn't think of myself as trans because it had been drilled in my head that transgender people are "spitting at God's face" for "mutilating" their bodies as my parents would say. It wasn't until my freshman year of high school that I acknowledged the possibility that I could be trans, but I was still kinda in denial about it for most of that year, and it wasn't until that summer that I accepted myself as trans. I came out as non binary the beginning of my sophomore year to all the people at school, and everyone around me was pretty accepting given that the school I go to is pretty liberal. However, I couldn't (and still can't) come out to my family because of their religious and cultural background. Sometimes, I feel like I have to choose between my identity and my family.

I am pretty certain that I am not cis, but I don't know if I am non binary, transmasculine, ftm, or something else. I am just going through this journey one step at a time, and I hope I can make some new friends here!

[V M]

Hi Kwaku 

Welcome to Susan's Place    Glad to have you here, join on in the fun

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Hugs

V M

[Northern Star Girl]

Hi everyone!


I am Kwaku (that's the name I've chosen for now) and I am a senior in high school, so I do have quite a lot to learn. While I go to a boarding school New England (I am on financial aid), I live in Toronto.

I think I began suffering from gender dysphoria while I was going through puberty (puberty slapped me at a very young age), but I didn't think of myself as trans because it had been drilled in my head that transgender people are "spitting at God's face" for "mutilating" their bodies as my parents would say. It wasn't until my freshman year of high school that I acknowledged the possibility that I could be trans, but I was still kinda in denial about it for most of that year, and it wasn't until that summer that I accepted myself as trans. I came out as non binary the beginning of my sophomore year to all the people at school, and everyone around me was pretty accepting given that the school I go to is pretty liberal. However, I couldn't (and still can't) come out to my family because of their religious and cultural background. Sometimes, I feel like I have to choose between my identity and my family.

I am pretty certain that I am not cis, but I don't know if I am non binary, transmasculine, ftm, or something else. I am just going through this journey one step at a time, and I hope I can make some new friends here!

@gender_bender
Dear Kwaku:
    I am most pleased that you had decided to join the Susan's Place site.

    I see that our lovely member  @V M   has already welcomed you to Susan's Place.  Please allow me to also welcome you here.
    Thank you for writing your very first posting.... as you get more involved in exchanging comments on various posts other members will be along to offer their thoughts and comments in response to any of your specific questions and concerns..

    This is the right place for you to be to find out what others may have to say that may have been in your circumstances and with your questions and concerns.
    There are a lot of members here that will be able to identify with your situation as you continue to feel free to share it.

    I also want to warmly WELCOME you to Susan's Place. 
You will find this a safe and friendly place to share with others and to read about others similar trials, tribulations, and successes.

    As you are certainly aware you can share with others and involve yourself with some give and take with other like-minded members.  When frustrated or if you have successes you can share it here if you wish and receive support from others and offer support to others. ....
     ***It's a very good chance that you might find that you will make some new friends here. 

    Please come in and continue to be involved at your own pace.
   
    There is information and important LINKS that  V M  included in her welcome message to you.   You will find information about the site that will help you navigate around and best utilize the features here.   
Please look closely at the LINKS in RED, answers are there to many questions that new members ask.

Again, Welcome to Susan's Place.
Danielle

[cattywumpus]

Heyo! Have you checked out Trans Youth Toronto or Gender Journeys? Maybe helpful to you

[Devlyn]

Hi Kwaku, welcome to Susan's Place! I'm a native New Englander currently living in Olde England.  . Get busy posting and making friends, and I'll be seeing you around the site!

Hugs, Devlyn

[LizK]

Hi Kwaku

Welcome to Susan's

This is a great place with lots of great people and I hope you enjoy your time here.

Take care

Liz