i really suck at introductions...
My name is Emillie Lane. i'm a 38-year-old stay-at-home mother. i came out to most of my family, and close friends on July 3rd of this year. Before that, i'd been struggling both with admitting it to myself, as well as trying to figure out how to move forward. My therapist has known for a year, or so, but she's not the greatest therapist (she's what i can afford). Thankfully, my immediate family have all been extremely supportive. They, and my friend's responses were pretty much "Well, that explains a lot," or "It's about damn time." The only ones left to tell are my parents, and i already have a good idea of how that will go. They're both very conservative, very religious, and very vocal about transgender people and LGBT+ topics in general. i'm waiting until after Christmas, so my daughter can have at least one more before they disown me (seriously).
i have a variety of other mental illnesses that make transitioning a bit trying. On top of those, there are years of self-esteem issues to try to work through. Suffice it to say that it's hard to see myself as anything other than a homely, masculine woman. On the plus side (maybe), i've only been on HRT for a few months, and i'm already seeing some physical changes.
i'm hoping to find information on a variety of topics here. Everything from "How the hell do i put on makeup?" to "How do i deal with [X] issue?" But mostly i'm wanting to associate with others like me. Agoraphobia makes it impossible to go to a local support group, so finding a community online is my only option right now.
