Hi Nuno! Without discounting your uniqueness, I want you to know that many people will find your story to be familiar. Even though I'm a cis woman, I am familiar with being shy, not good at doing what was expected of me, being odd, and feeling lonely, stuck in my shell. I went through waves of friends as I explored possibilities, working to connect with who I was, truly was, my core self.
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Hello, i have always been the shy type. I wasnt good at soccer, i was too skinny, i only read books and i didnt have a friend in the world. With the years that passed i started to figure out how to get out off my shell. It was not giving a damn about what people think and just go with the flow. Thats my moto for 3 years now and i feel happy by finally having friends.
You will find opportunities here at Susan's to connect with cross dressers, trans people (many who look better than most females), and other people who can help you to get out of the trap that you might be in.
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I used to consider myself straight ut for 2 years now i have started to read about crossdressing and having feelings for it. I mean, i dont like guys all that much but i have nothing against them, but i seem to like trans/crossdressers and the lot( the ones who look like females) to be even better looking than actual women. I feel trapped by these feelings and im afraid that if i expose it to my friends and family they will theink badly of me.
You can also find here ideas for how to feel like a woman without being one.
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I want to feel like a woman but not be one in itself. I want to be able to wear stocking and makeup if i feel like it. Then while chatting online I found someone who was a member of this site and she said it would help me. I hope it works.
i want people to give me advice on how to act normally in my own privacy while crossdressing and a place that i can feel understood. Thank you for reading 
Yours truly, Nuno
Best wishes to you as you grow through what's holding you back, like a weedy vine that can't be discouraged. I love the consistent theme here: Be Yourself! Let your light shine!