A long time gone and just wanted to report in.

[TanyaG]

I too feel the dysphoria stronger over time as I see other women. I believe I cannot ever feel comfortable with my appearance and will never pass so I need to find another approach.

Welcome to Susan's, you'll find lots of empathy here. Finding an approach where you are comfortable with who you are, rather than measuring yourself against a cultural image of an ideal you is likely to find you an easier place to be in. A lot of people find themselves going down the rabbit hole of wanting to be someone else when happiness lies in finding the comfort zone of whatever the feminine version of you is. Seeing that version without the fog.

[NatalieRene]

Chelsea,

I just saw this thread today. I checked and I don't see any activity from your account in a while. I really hope that you haven't hurt yourself.

Just from reading your first post I can feel your anguish. Looks are not everything. Please remember that you have people in your life that love you.

Try not to hate your mother. She did what she thought was best for you. She didn't understand what she was doing. What you can do now is be an advocate for those now facing the same issues in their life. You can be a shining light in this world. Don't give up.