Like many others I withdrew from the world to hide my secret. With that came a lot of awkward behavior's. Not the least of these was being socially inept . Oh I could talk your leg off about Six Sigma, MRP/ERP systems, computer integration etc. Mainly because I am well versed in all things production. Yay, APICS. However having an open conversation is a real bugaboo. I don't think I am that interesting first of all and Devlyn would probably agree.
I strained my vocal chords when I was a kid so I have never been able to talk loudly enough to be understood. When I was called upon in school I would freeze up. I had a hard time starting conversations which led to the opinion that I was stuck up.
Last night in my support group I actually instigated and maintained a conversation for over an hour. This is a milestone in my transition as a human being. I chose this as a subject for this post because not all of our improvements are in our physical features. It proves I am overcoming my shyness. Quite an accomplishment at my age. I attribute it to the hormones. One of my problems with being involved in conversations is that they would light a slow fuse that would get hotter and hotter until I blew. Tired of being ignored, tired of being misunderstood. tired of explaining and reexplaining what I thought was basic logic. Tired of being sarcastic.
Anyhoo, I believe this is an unexpected accomplishment due to not being depressed , that I am really proud of and I expect to only get better.
